Hi there babes. Submissive trans woman here who proudly identifies as a Bull because I have all those characteristics. 6'4 tall, 235lbs, big cock, huge balls and so on. Looking for women (cis/trans) and other trans/queer peeps who are into $nuff and gore because this bull wants to be r@foot, beaten, dismembered and consumed. If you're into that kinda stuff, hit me up!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5ea5jKFGgUw

When I was younger, I had the biggest crush on Audrey in this film. Still do. Perfect legs, perfect boobs, perfect ass, sexy voice, cute outfits, a girly girl to the end. I have gone in hard to every frame of her.

But when Orin showed up, things get intense. What was once a self-confident, sun-shiny character becomes an obedient, scared, dominated blonde bombshell that looks stunning when she's terrified about getting the beating of her life. Add handcuffed, beaten and humiliated to all of the adjectives above and I have my ultimate movie fantasy.

The movie is such a tease. She has handcuffs in her bag. Orin forces his way into her apartment, clearly knowing she is out of vitalis and the camera cuts away after he grabs her and slaps her once and begins to strangle her. WHAT HAPPENED NEXT!? WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME!?

If I were Orin and I was in Audrey's apartment, alone with her, I just know it would be an amazing evening.

I confess I hate my peaceful upbringing. By that I mean that my parents and all the surrounding people always said, violence was no solution. As a child you dig that. You dig that so strong that you don't increase your strength because you don't need it as violence was no solution. Women don't respect you cause you cannot win through without a basis in strength. I told my parents about being beaten and all they did was say "violence is no solution".

Even now I still have this belief that was proven false a zillion times in my life instilled in myself. I think the reason why my punches are still weak stem from this. And the pieces of shit called my parents still think what they did was right.

And others tune in. No one looks at violence as an opportunity all they do is judge even the slightest amount of violence. All of that while the state uses violence on a daily basis. And when I was attacked, instead of suggesting to learn how to fight - and what is more to support me doing that(there are more than enough reasons to stop martial arts) they said the one attacking was stupid and did something wrong. That's all. He did something wrong. Yeah right. He shagged beautiful women, he accomplished an university degree and he beat me. And all these pieces of shit say is "he did something wrong". As if he cared.

The tip of iceberg: I told my mother I was attacked recently and she said, you are old enough you should be able to defend yourself.

All my life she prepared me for helplessness just to tell me that a man should be able to do X and Y just because he is grown up..

DEEP IN THE FRIENDZONE
I confess that I want to fuck one of my best friends. I know it's probably nothing out of the ordinary. But I need to talk it out.
I've been friends with her since our freshman year in college. I used to have a huge crush on her. I never had the courage to ask her out because I had done something stupid just the year before when telling a girl how I felt about her. It kept me from asking a girl out for a couple of years because I was afraid of how they would react. She also used to flip-flop on what she wanted. The first semester, she told everyone via Facebook that she wasn't looking for anybody. The next semester, she said she wanted a relationship. But she didn't know who. She changed her mind quite a bit on this.
After a while, I got tired of it, moved on, and we became very good friends. We hung out together and we started to share personal baggage with each other. I still cared about her very much and I was still physically attracted to her. I've beaten off to Facebook pictures of her more than a few times. She's got small, perky tits and a nice, well-toned ass. I would occasionally glance at her ass, down her shirt, or even try to get a peek up her skirt as she sat across from me. I don't know if she ever noticed or not. She never said anything and she still acted normal around me. I decided to just ignore my urges because I didn't want to lose her as a friend.
As I said, she flip-flopped on what she wanted from a guy. She had a bf, then she didn't have one and wasn't looking for one, then she did, and so on. Last year, after she broke up with her last bf, she told me and another friend that she was friend with benefits with some guy. Later that week, as we hung out, she started to tell me more about how she could hookup with guys without having feelings for them. In fact, she started sleeping with him because he was known to hookup without wanting a relationship. I sure she found him attractive, too. But that was the deciding factor.
I told her that I wasn't sure if I could do that. I probably blew a golden opportunity, there. But I was being honest with her. I'm still a virgin, which she already knew. I really couldn't know for sure if I could keep love and sex separate, especially if I was a virgin and used to have a crush her. I also didn't know for sure if she really wanted to hookup with me. Every once and a while, she still tells me about other guys she has hooked up with. I told her she could always talk to me about anything. She never went into details nor did I ask. I just wanted to be a good friend.
I would try to approach the subject, again. But I'm really not sure how she would react and she probably remembers what I said. She has slept with at least a few guys. But she has also had a few creeps after her, in the past. Nothing serious. Just a guy who started to bug her and another guy who sent her dirty messages over Facebook. The guy she was hooking up with, earlier in the story, also started to like her. I don't want to end up becoming one of those creeps she has had to deal with. I don't want to lose a friend, either. I also don't know if she would want to sleep with a guy who has no sexual experience.
We're seniors, now. We'll probably be living in different places after we graduate. She has talked to me about staying friends and meeting up, after college. Hearing about her fucking different guys without dating them and seeing her body are making me think about her more. There aren't many girls in what I study. Most of the girls that are in my major are either taken or not interested. It's not like I know a bunch of other girls that I could hook up with. I'm tired of being a virgin. But I don't know how it would play out and I don't want to end up hurt over this.

I don't know what to do.