I confess I hate my peaceful upbringing. By that I mean that my parents and all the surrounding people always said, violence was no solution. As a child you dig that. You dig that so strong that you don't increase your strength because you don't need it as violence was no solution. Women don't respect you cause you cannot win through without a basis in strength. I told my parents about being beaten and all they did was say "violence is no solution".
Even now I still have this belief that was proven false a zillion times in my life instilled in myself. I think the reason why my punches are still weak stem from this. And the pieces of shit called my parents still think what they did was right.
And others tune in. No one looks at violence as an opportunity all they do is judge even the slightest amount of violence. All of that while the state uses violence on a daily basis. And when I was attacked, instead of suggesting to learn how to fight - and what is more to support me doing that(there are more than enough reasons to stop martial arts) they said the one attacking was stupid and did something wrong. That's all. He did something wrong. Yeah right. He shagged beautiful women, he accomplished an university degree and he beat me. And all these pieces of shit say is "he did something wrong". As if he cared.
The tip of iceberg: I told my mother I was attacked recently and she said, you are old enough you should be able to defend yourself.
All my life she prepared me for helplessness just to tell me that a man should be able to do X and Y just because he is grown up..
