I am a lonely middle aged woman, divorced twice, I never looked good, and frankly, I am ugly, and I have been aware of that since my youth. Having big boobs did help in my 20's and 30's, but men weren't racing towards me. I lost my virginity at 23, to the man I later married. Only other man I had after that, was my second husband, and that did not end well either.
So, for a woman with a high sexual drive, this is hard, and this is the reason why I am here.
Now, I have a friend, who is a total opposite of me, beautiful, slim, men have been drooling over her for ages. She is still single, not being afraid of life, even though we are both pushing 42. At the moment of weakness, I confessed my sexual frustrations to her, and she was puzzled. She told me a woman can find a man for such a thing, whenever she wants it.
So, we took a babysitter, and got out one night, all the interest was pointed at her direction, and she flirted, trying to get me into the game... It was humiliating, they would just give me the look, smile, and refocus their attention to her.
At the end of the night, she invited one of these men to her place, late 20's or early 30's, couldn't really tell, handsome, and he was happy to go with us. She started kissing him as soon as we walked in, and I was ready to go back home, when she took my hand, and pulled me in, and kissed me, and after that, he started kissing me...
We shared him that night, and it was amazing. I've never gotten an anilingus, and he was so good at it, that it made me cum, with just a few touches on my clit, during the deed. She kissed me while he fucked me, and that made me cum for the second time, and I kissed her while it was her turn, and it was, so good...
And after that night, even though we just kissed, I was afraid to explore my feeling towards what happened. It took me more than a month to gain the courage to talk to her about it. I was afraid she will be, I don't know ,mad at me in some way, disgusted, that this would set us apart. You know what her answer was?
"Relax, it was just sex"
This night turned my perception of things, and I feel better about myself, I even found a guy, on my own, who I see from time to time, but, one thing I still wonder, did she deliberately have sex with this man, just so I can get some as well, or is it just something she casually does, cause she lives the way she pleases?
When I asked her that, she just smiled.
