ok, so my worst experience like that was at a swingers' club. don't even ask how i ended up there.. i guess i have always been curious about sex, and having lost my virginity when and to whom i didn't even want to didn't help me value myself either.
obviously i have been on fetlife and that kind of stuff. i met a guy around 50 there called Fox. i will always be scared of Fox, and despite the fact he has moved abroad now, i am still wary when i'm near the area he used to live. one time he choked me till i blacked out a bit and then kissed me. i've always had issues with kissing people, and this really fucked me up further.
so we had a couple membership at this swingers' club. we weren't a couple or anything, just both used to go there. well, this was my second and last time there. i was in a bit of a rush to get home, as i had an open day at a university the next day. so i picked out three guys, and went to a room, along with Fox. i don't think Fox could even get hard, but i guess i felt better having him with me, and he seemed to like watching me. creep. so one of the guys left the room early, compared to the other two. the door was only lockable from the inside. i didn't know the door was unlocked. i don't remember how many guys i did that night. i don't want to remember. i didn't want it. i know some people are going to get off on this, and tbh, i find that kind of funny in a dark way. i am genuinely scared of sex these days, and even embarrassed to be seen naked by my boyfriend. anyway, after a few guys i asked if the door was unlocked, and asked Fox to close it. what made him think it was ok to just let anyone in..? i was fucking 18. some people are just fucked up. i remember one black guy was particularly painful. i remember having my eyes closed most of the time, but afterwards when i asked Fox said i've done about 10 guys. i was kind of impressed with myself, but now i know it was for all the wrong reasons.
to be honest, i don't acknowledge that person as myself anymore. i have memories i don't want to remember, and that's it. i don't want to associate myself with that person. i still feel a bit weird around red lights, because that's the type of lights used in that type of club. again, i am a proper good person now, i am in full time education and have two jobs, and an striving for a normal, picket fence lifestyle one day..so i reject this as a part of me.
but feel free to ask any questions, i will try and answer them to the best of my memory.
or ask if you'd like to hear about my other gangbang i sort of remember. you can see photos of that one on my old channel, which is linked in my bio.
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the positive part to come out of this is that you are who you are now because of the experience. i am not sure whether to ask questions or whether to talk about your other gangbang. i dont want to offend
honestly, this is motherless. this is worse than 4chan. you really have no reason to worry about offending people. xD
ok i would like to see what you look like. i would like to know if you were tied down when all those guys were fucking you. i want to know about the other gangbang and whether it was before or after this one.
i was not tied down. i just didn't know what i was getting myself in for.
the other one was before that one, probably a few months, the one i described was my last, and i seized most of my sexual activity not long after the one i described.
you can see how i look in pictures on my current profile as well as my old one, but i will attach a recent nude just because you asked specifically. no face though, because obviously i don't want to be grouped together with perverts anymore. i know it is easy to find what my face looks like, but tbh, if someone goes out of their way just to find that, that's down to their pathetic selves.
thank you for being so open and honest. your picture is amazing! you look different to how i pictured you in my head but that is to be expected. if i may ask some more questions? were you only being fucked in you pussy or was your mouth and ass being used aswell? was there physical damage? i feel so pathetic writing to you like this about this topic.
