The more I read about what you have done, the more pissed I get. FFS!
If you are fair dinkum about this, I have a solution. Grab a pistol, write your will, confess all � names and dates would be a good idea � just so the women can get some help. Place the pistol in your mouth (cocked and loaded), press the barrel on the roof of your mouth � as far back as you can go, just to the point you start gagging � now here is the important part, twist the weapon to your left so it is on a 35 degree angle or so, then pull the trigger.
If this works, you shouldn�t die � you will be a vegetable but the literature says you should still feel and hear the world, a nice way for an arsehole like you to spend the rest of his life!