I am an academic, currently completing a post doctorate at a university in Australia in the field of condensed matter physics. I have a fairly solid reputation, seen as someone respectable. A person without dramas nor kinks.
But I have quite a few repressed kinks. I had set up a hotmail account under a fake alias and added many female contacts to messenger. All were girls I knew. I would get on webcam and masturbate for them. Most blocked me, but a few enjoyed watching. One was an ex housemate who I went to highschool with, another was my cousin. But my confession involves a girl I went to uni with. She was doing her phd in some wishy washy subject about science and society. I used to mock her light heartedly about this. In any case, I started masturbating for her. At first she found it amusing, then intriguing. She wasn't dumb and realised I must be someone she knew. I wouldn't reveal myself to her though.
The problem is one occasion I was even hornier than usual. It wasn't enough that she was watching me jerk off. I had the desire for her to know who I was. By some idiot compulsion I revealed my identity to her. She was shocked, since in person there was no way anyone would suspect me of any kinks, and aside from watching me masturbate we also had many conversations. She knew that though I considered myself straight, I occasionally had fantasies about sucking cock, and that though I considered myself a dominant person, had fantasies about being dominated.
She promised to keep it secret, but over time the relationship changed. She began teasing me by threatening to out me. She had recorded some of my cam performances and of course had our chat logs. And though I never revealed my face, there was enough to prove the person was me. I told her I would do whatever it took to make it worth her while not to reveal my dirty side to our colleagues.
Now once a week, I suck her boyfriends cock. Sometimes he cums in my mouth. Sometimes I watch him fuck her and I eat his cream pie out of her. At first it turned me on a little, even if I tried not to admit it. Now I'm over it, and I only keep doing it to keep my dirty little secret.
