The great thing about motherless is that I can make genuine confessions and no one will ever believe them. I have a co-worker by the name of Stephanie she is truly a gorgeous creature 31 years old with large hips and a great round shapely ass. She something wears this skin tight light blue jeans which not make her ass great ass look that much better but also gives her some wicked cameltoe. I've often wondered if she's wearing any underwear since the outline of her pussy is so well defined.
Over the last few years since I've joined the company I have slowly chipped away at her defenses and now I think that I can at least call her a friend. I will admit that I prefer to make friends with women because I don't get along with other males and females give better eye candy once they've grown accustomed to your presence.
While I respect Stephanie and the relationship that she's in, a relationship with a 19 year old that doesn't even own a car yet, I suppose the sex must be prodigious if nothing else. And while I have no intentions of having a sexual relationship with her since I'm married and would rather die then dishonor myself in such a way, I can't help but be jealous of her BF. This young punk stole my lunch out of the company fridge once and this is the caliber of man that gets to bang Stephanie's sweet, young body?
Since this is an anonymous board I can openly admit, for the first time, that I'm madly in love with this women. But it's not the same type of love that I have for my wife, yes, I'd love to bang Stephanie but have made peace with the fact that I never will. I'm perfectly with turning around and watching her ass bounce as she walked passed from time to time at work. I do lover her though and want her to be in my life for a long time. Unfortunately such feelings aren't the type of thing that one had openly admit without being ridiculed or misunderstood by those around me. Especially my dear wife, who constantly tells me she doesn't deserve me.
Is it truly wrong to want to have a close relationship with a women that isn't your wife? I understand that there are boundaries that I can never cross in my relationship with Stephanie, but what's wrong with going out with her every once in a while, maybe to the movies and dinner? I often wonder why I don't have the balls to just tell Stephanie "Would you like to go out with me?"
Over the last few weeks, I do feel that Stephanie and I have become closer and I hope to one day achieve what I am working towards. Having her as a close lady friend, you know the kind of lady friend that feels so comfortable and secure around you that she walks around in nothing but a T-Shirt and panties when you're over at her house because she knows that while you enjoy the show you would never be inappropriate with her because not only do you love your wife but you respect and love her far too much to make her something as shameful as your mistress.
Thank you Motherless for giving me the chance to get something off my chest that I've been staying up late at night thinking about for the last few nights. While I understand that I'm going to have find a way to rid myself of this feelings for the sake of the love that I have for my wife, I feel cheated that I'll be able to have a friendship with a women that I think would enrich my life beyond measure.
