I am in a middle of a mid-life crisis, and I am a woman.
My husband - I didnt find him attractive any more, and that has been the case for a long, long time. I have cheated, with three different men over the past 15 years, two of those were a one night thing, while the third one, I had an affair with him, that lasted for over two years, but it ended, when he refused to leave his wife for me.
I also have a lesbian friend, who is into BDSM, and out of curiosity, she took me to one of these parties, where I pretended to be her slave. I have always been a free spirit, and curios (well, I guess that is why I am here), and that thing excited me. Not in a sexual way, but it was exciting to see the extent of freedom some people live in.
So, I told my husband about that, confessed that it wasnt hot in that way, but that maybe we should try something new. I have to admit, I did this solely for my own pleasure, I couldnt care less about him, but, it lead us down the path of experimenting and fantasy, which ended up with us going to a swinger party.
My heart was racing!!! Oh, the things I expected...
What a let down. A bunch of fat, old people, looking disgusting and doing disgusting things. We sat it out. Somewhere, after a few hours of drinking and laughing at ourselves, the one good looking woman in there, blonde our age, approached me, and asked, if she can borrow my husband. The look on his face, when I said yes, oh my god, I wish I had a camera to film it. Then her husband came by, and he, again, asked, if it is ok for her to take him to the room. She is good looking, but compared to him - lets say that it is obvious that he settled for her.
As they went off, he sat next to me, and we started talking. I was thinking he will ask me the same thing, but he didnt. We spoke about swinging, and when he learned that it is our first time, he apologized - they had no idea. But in the end, he said, that my husband will be hooked for life after tonight, bragging about his wifes skills I guess.
When they came back, he wasnt able to look me in the eyes, and we soon left, but not before she gave me her number, and I gave her mine.
I could see that he was shook , he was kissing me, and being so caring towards me on our way home. He thought I would be mad, since it was obvious that nothing happened between me and our new friend. I couldnt care less, I just wanted that man.
I was the one to call her. We had coffee, just me and her, and I come to find out that she is a successful lawyer. I did feel a bit small after that conversation, but she was the one to tell me that, if the party thing is too much for us, we could see each other in a private arrangement. She likes my husband (she told me this in an insecure tone, looking like the shyest girl from the catholic school), and that her husband likes me as well.
And it was done. My husband wasnt so sure, but I saw through him - he wasnt sure if it was my trap, but after he realized the offer is genuine, he agreed.
First time we met up, it was at our place (we considered many other options, but that one sounded the safest), and since these two were so experienced in this, we followed their guide lines, so we started with a few drinks and jokes, to lighten up the night.
It wasnt long, and I was bent over the side of the bed, with him licking my anus, while rubbing my clit with his fingers. I have never done that before, and between him doing it, and hearing the moaning of my husband with his wife on the same bed, I came, with my eyes closed, like I never came before.
My lover came almost right after he entered me, and my husband and her, were still doing it, with raw passion.
So, since the first night was a success, this became our thing, once a week, every given Saturday, we would do this. After some time, some paterns developed. He would go down on me, satisfy me, and then, upon entry, he would cum really fast. Them, on the other hand, started evolving into this power fuck couple, that started going further and further, lasting longer and longer.
I saw a change in my husband, not just in sex, but his confidence sky rocketed. My partner was so eager to please me, and he has done it so well, but when I tried to make us do the same, it would flop. Once I wanted to start it with giving him a blow job - he liked it, but again, he came really fast, and, again, I ended up on my back, being eaten out.
So I started making the best of it, I would look at them making love, while he was doing his thing, and I realized, that I have traded my alpha fucker husband, for a wimp. And I would cum hard, while looking at him go, watching his confidence, his strenght, the power he was doing it with her. I would cum two, three times, asking my wimp lover to continue, just to watch him make love to her, except, he wasnt making love to her, he was fucking her like one would fuck a street hooker.
And she was over the moon for him.
He took charge. First, he took off his condom during one of our sessions, with the words "cant stand this shit any more", they didnt object, but my wimp lover continued to use his - I guess to make him "last longer".
He started calling her names, slapping her, and one time, he just said "bend over and give me your ass". And he just took it, right in front of us.
I have tried to do the same thing with him, when we were back home, but he wasnt interested, told me he is tired, dried up etc.
He wasnt, he just didnt want me.
In the end, he asked for a divorce, at the same time she did. I did ask him why, even though I knew the reason, but when he told me "you made me feel like a worthless slug, she makes me feel like a man", I should have stopped asking. But I didnt, so he told me I "took his manhood, convinced him that he is worthless to the point where he started feeling worthless, as a lesser man".
They are living together now, and I have stopped all contact with my unfortunate lover. And, that is it, I fucked up.
