Confession- I love making my sissy do humiliating, most degrading uncomfortable and sometimes painful tasks to earn a dirty masturbation session and cum. I love stuffing sissy’s faggot ass with my cigarette butts that I save all week, most times between 5-10 half smoked butts are stuffed in sissy’s ass then I diaper him and I place another large handful  in his ass crack for pain when he sits. Lastly the rest of my saved butts are poured down the front of his diaper surrounding his little cock. The menthol from my cigarettes burn his tender cock and gaping ass. Now it’s off to bed for sissy until morning when I’m ready to finalize his 12+ hour torture sissy pees and poops his diaper all night as it mixes with my ashtray waste. I’ll let sissy play with his dirty little cock as I ash in his mouth, burn his little dick with my cigarette and verbally humiliate him into begging for more. I make him lick my ashtray and chew the handful of butts I shove in his mouth. I may shit on him just for good measure. I’m glad I can share my kinks here with you all. 

It’s insane the amount of bigotry on this site. Literal shit and piss kinks are fine but a trans woman wanting to hookup is going too far for some of yall? If you don’t like it move the fuck on instead of being hateful for no reason. Oh wait I forgot that’s not in their blood or genes, they literally have to be hateful or they experience physical pain.

I confess I have a pain fetish which I have trouble performing; I'm not sick enough to like, hurt someone who does not want to be hurt but for example: I am with my ex fucking her and she bites me, she knows she can draw blood and I enjoy it, I like getting cut, bruised, and hurt, but not dominated for I am the dominant...so I proceed to bite her to draw blood too and she cries in pain with no pleasure, begging me to stop...FOR REAL....I confess I want to find a submissive who likes pain and does not mind drawing blood or even drinking a bit of it(I'm DnD free, and NO that does NOT mean dungeons and dragons..:/)

Am I warped? I have many relationship problems as a result of this; some think I'm abusive or sick when it's nothing like that at all, and I seem to have a failing habit of trying to find kink clubs or something, but, yeah, I suck at that.

Any ideas? no trolling, just serious advice. Please.

I have to confess that since I came across some urethral insertion videos on this site a couple years I have been fascinated with it.
Always been excited watching female urethra being played with and never gave much of a look at male videos but always wanted to try it out.
Over the year I read scary story of people who had no idea what they had been doing have very bad consequences with trying it out.

I never fund the nerves or any possible objects with a small enough diameters to test it out for myself.
But this morning after browsing the search result for urethra on here I came upon the one where a man uses the cable of some headphones and I remembered having some stored away.

Went looking out for those, the main cable still seemed scary big once folded in two, I wasn't going to cut the cable and risk having a blunt end and scratch the inside of my urethra.
But the smaller cable part from the headphone part was much smaller and started to get excited.

Took a few minute to go wash this cable with some rubbing alcohol, dried it up, then washed it some more with water to make sure there was no trace of alcohol on it.
Came back to sit down in front of my computer and watching some hot female urethral insertion I got an amazing erection.
Took out some water based lube and let a drop on the tip of my cock and let it gently slide down my shaft.
I then took the cable folded in two and slipped it inside the lube tube to make sure it would slip easily.

While keeping watching the video and getting more and more aroused I finally decided to insert the folded cable inside my dick, very slowly while keeping stroking.
Worked the cable deeper and deeper and started jerking it inside of my cock and it felt so good, I had no idea what to expect.
Took it all out and dipped it once more inside the lube tube and then back in my rockhard cock,stroke a few more time and finally came while the cable was still in there.
The sensation was unbelievable, I got to admit that the amount of cum that came out wasn't too impressive though.

Then came the dreaded moment of truth, taking it out and go take a piss and hope I hadn't caused any major damage.
That pee didn't felt any good and was burning stinging the entire length of my urethra.
The good news was that there was no blood and it didn't keep burning once I was done peeing.

I am not a fan of pain in any way shape or form and have to admit that I fear the moment I will wake up in a few hours and need to go take another pee, if I am lucky enough and there are no pain or at least nothing as bad as I felt the last time I might take another attempt at this risky action, I have to admit while playing it did felt fucking good, but the stinging pain of taking that piss after left a sour taste in my mind.

Perhaps I should just take the time to visit a store and actually get some proper sounding tool for this new kink of mine.
I would welcome any suggestions on how to safely enjoy this new fetish but it will all come to the moment I have to take another pee and hope the pain as already gone. Might not be too tempted to take any more attempt at this otherwise.

Sorry if this wasn't a story as crazy and exciting you might have expected it to turn out.
I will try and keep anyone interested updated through this thread in the coming days. For now it's time to catch some rest and hope everything is going to be fine.