I have always been a very sexual person, I guess me being here is proof enough, but I was never promiscuous, more of a serial monogamist. I had three long term relationships, the third being my husband.
Now, since I am here, you can presume, that my libido is very high, and I am here incognito, tickling my imagination, but nothing more, and I have been unfaithful only once, and even then I did not really go through it, and this confession is aimed at that particular incident.
A little prelude, I am in my late 40's, and there was never a shortage of men looking my way, even though I am far from a beauty. This happened at a work event, where one of my colleagues, who I would have never thought would pay any attention to me, started hitting on me, with hints, teasing, joking, you know the drill. He has done that before, and it flattered me, since he is so out of my league, but this time, since we were all, a bit tipsy, he was more open, and direct.
He offered me a ride home, and I accepted, while my heart was pounding out of my chest. During the drive, he reached for my leg, and I did not back out of it, then he took my hand and put it on his crotch - her was ready to go. I felt like I was dreaming, and at the same time I felt huge guilt over the way my body reacted to this situation, because of my husband. When he stopped, a few hundred meters from my building, my hands went for it, without me realising. He tried pulling my head down, but even this was too much, so I kissed him on the lips instead. He was big, and really, really hard, and he came explosively, which I felt was a big compliment for me. I came to my senses after that, and said goodbye.
Now, this never happened again, I made it pretty clear to him, that it was a mistake, but my true confession is, that I remember that night, when I have some time on my own, and please myself to the thought of what could have happened, if I was someone else, someone who can prioritise lust, over love.
I know that this is not much, compared to other confessions here, but for me, it is huge.