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Well, it was a week ago today, early in the morning I'm getting ready for work, and my car wouldn't start. So I had to take an uber to work. He got there in pretty good time. It's only about a 12 minute drive to my job, and we talked a little as we drove. Something struck me a little differently about this guy. I told him my situation, and he agreed to pick me up at the end of my work day. when I came out of the building, he was waiting. He drove me back home, and that feeling returned there was something different about him. I just couldn't figure out what was trying to worm it's way in to my mind as we pulled up to the house . He asked if he could use the restroom, and hesitantly I said yes. My weird feeling was starting to manifest itself into nightmares. After he exited the bathroom, he thanked me. It was while he was sucking my dick, that it dawned on me that , he might be gay. It just seemed kind of weird, because he was wearing a hat while he was sucking my dick and I don't honestly think a hat is part of proper dick sucking attire. I would have asked him, but his mouth was already full. I said to myself, I know I'll go ask my neighbor . My confession is that I know he's 100 percent gay , because he voted Republican this past election
I showcase my exhibitionism and its manifestations.
Trying to get my cock out there so it can start gaining momentum. Tell me what you wanna manifest and then tell my cock how you want it to pop
I can't wait to start doing some good with cumshot energy...
Masturbating to my own bondage videos
Confession that I guess may not be all that odd, but still, I am making it.
It is an interesting thing that I have come to realize: I get off at a higher level by watching myself in the bondage/torture themed videos I am in. Watch them now more than others, and I focus on the scenes where my ass is getting fucked, or my penis and balls are getting tortured. I focus in on the audio of my groans, and cries, all while I am tightly stroking my penis. When my ass is exposed, I imagine fucking myself, violently thrusting my own penis into my ass hole.
If i could magically merge myself into one of those videos, and fuck and torture myself, I would do it. Not only that, I would do far more severe, painful, sick, and filthy things to myself than others would never do, or that I could never do to anyone else.
First, I considered this the manifestation of a self-hatred, but that is not true. I do not hate myself at all. There is something else here, something that comes from the thought that my sexual organs and being exploited for the enjoyment of others. Exploiting myself and enjoying it takes me to another level.
Has anyone else, or does anyone else do this? For me I have to be in bondage, being tortured/or used in the video. I have many others that I have never posted anyway, and those are the ones I watch the most because they are made to be far more extreme than what I feel comfortable showing.
But, if you watch videos of yourself dancing, masturbating, having sex, get fucked, in bondage, or just whatever, let me know. Or, am I just weird, and far more messed up than thought I ever was?
This is my first ML confession... and i welcome intelligent comments, feedback and shared experiences.
Within the last month or so...some things have been changing in my path as a submissive.
i have increased hungers... my fetishes are intensifying... and i am giving in to my cravings in new ways.
i am doing things i have never done before, privately, on my own.
No one is ordering me to do them... they are coming from within me... like a physical manifestation of my lust.
i confess that this week, i masturbated myself on a dirty, public bathroom floor to express some of that lust...
i sat on the floor in a large stall, in a corner, with my legs open to touch myself.
i let my imagination take me to a place that always affects my body and i rubbed my clit...
i liked it. i want to do it again...and again...
It felt dirty and whorish and desperate... i was safe but i felt vulnerable.
i was surprised how deeply i enjoyed it and how much i want to keep doing it.
Now, it's like...i need it... it's erotic and freeing. Expression of our desires and sexuality can happen anywhere, anytime. We just need to allow ourselves to make it happen... to indulge.
i wonder what i will try next...
