My boyfriend dumped me! His loss! Now who wants to fuck?

I just lost $7231 trading forex. First loss in over 3 weeks.

Off topic just have to vent.

Dont gamble people. it is like a drug or worse. IT controlled me, im so depressed. What started as a fun night out with my girlfriend at the casino turned me into an addict. I started lyinng and sneaking up to the casino. I started spending all my savings.I started spending money i shouldnt of. I didnt drink and was sober.

Im 30, i have a clean criminal record. I kept chasing losses and tried to borrow and lie to cover up what i did. I then thought of illegal things to get money to support the habbit. I just turned into a different person, i dont know what gotten into me.

I had such a happy life, a great girlfriend and i blew it all. i dont see any point living. she left me cuz i lost everything and then some. i got nothing going for me and i am in debt up to my eyeballs

No clue how to recover, noway to get money... eating canned soup debating when to take my life.
had over 6figures, and now nothing

Do you prefer old weight loss (right) or slightly lighter version (left). Fyi she is meaner on the left. 

Im a 40 yo married father of two and I hate my wife. I think she is sexy and that many men and women would enjoy fucking and using all of her. The problem is she has low drive and not much interest. I'm her only. I fantasize about her getting drunk kissing with her boss, but feeling guilty and pull away, but instead for her boss and 2 other co workers to use her all night despite her tears and occasional loss of consciousness. Will feel exceptionally guilty because she will have orgasmed several times during the attack. This body is too sexy not to be used

Consuming my semen prevents cancer, promotes weight loss, improves mood and prevents heart disease.

The wife is a bit of an exhibitionist. She said she wanted to skinny dip at the state park, but the water was still a bit cold. 
The day wasn’t a complete loss as she did manage to surprise a few onlookers. 

I have a girlfriend who is a complete virgin to everything and I don't know how to progress further. She was a pretty lucky find but we have been dating for about a month now and I'm use to things moving a lot faster. The other girls I have been with were sluts so now I am at a loss for what to do? Should I just continue to wait? The last time we were making out I tried to move my hand between her legs and she said stop, so then I moved her legs apart and got between them and presses my cock against her pussy, she said stop to that also lol. She isn't waiting till marriage but she said she isn't ready.... ??

A while ago, my wife left me for another man - our relationship wasn't the best and we both knew it was over. It was a depressing time and it took me a while to get over the divorce. Luckily no kids were involved (even after 15 years of marriage). I coasted through life, turned 50, and really wasn't looking for a serious relationship... until I met this beautiful 24-year-old French girl, who was an art student visiting the USA.
I was a regular to a small dive of a coffee shop, I'd go in there and kick back, read a book and drink some coffee. She was in there a lot too. Eventually she approached me and talked to me.
"You know there's nothing more attractive than a guy reading a book... My name is Reine." She said in broken English with a heavy French accent. (It turns out her name means Queen in French)
I must have blushed, I wasn't used to talking to super attractive women at all - in fact most of the time if I was lonely I'd just find some ugly slut to fuck, or try Tinder which usually resulted in ugly sluts lol.
We talked for a while, got to know each other and she told me she's always had a kink for older men.
We started dating, I told her "You know I'm 26 years older than you so if we're still together when you're 50 I'll be 76 or dead."
She laughed it off, "We'll worry about that if and when we get there. Okay?"
I fell hard for her, I was head over heels in love. She was sweet, charming, and paid attention to me. What more could a guy ask for?
After a few days of getting to know her, we fucked - and let me tell you I've never had any sex that compared to what I've experienced with her. There was energy involved, it was like both of our souls met on a higher level and nothing else mattered.
I warned her that I was getting older, and I got some Cialis to make sure I could stay nice and hard for her.
It was probably about the fifth time we were fucking and she looked into my eyes as I plunged into her and spoke some French, but then translated it into English:
"I don't want you to pull out of me when you cum, I want you inside of me... deep inside of me forever my love."
I paused and all kinds of things flooded into my mind, especially if she was on birth control - and then I leaned forward and kissed her as I began thrusting into her beautiful body. I came deep inside of her, and she held me tight as my cum sprayed into her tight pussy.
It turns out, she had a creampie fetish - a breeding fetish.
This went on for months, and she ended up moving in with me. I'd fuck her almost daily, unless she was on her period. One day she looked a bit concerned and seemed to shut down, and she wouldn't talk to me about what the problem was. I went to work, and when I came back there was a note on the table from her.
"I didn't want to tell you, but I am pregnant and my visa has expired and it needs to be renewed so I need to return to France, I already had a flight booked and I was afraid to tell you. I love you very much and I don't know what to do. You are the most perfect man I have ever met, and I hope one day to be called your wife... but for now, I will return to France and get the visa renewed. I hate leaving you like this, it's stupid of me I know. But if you knew I was pregnant and returning to France, you would have stopped me. I will text you when I land and we will make plans to be together my love.
Always yours,
Reine"
I had a panic attack. I texted her, called her, and nothing. Days passed and depression set in for me.
While I loved this woman with all of my heart, I knew nothing about her family, or where she lived in France. All of her clothing was gone, and she didn't have too many personal items...
Sometimes we would sext each other when I was at work, and that's where the picture came from. I just miss her - and I have even thought about going to France to look for her - but how the hell would I even find her? It's such a big country. I don't even know what city or town she's from.
It all came to a head and I was about to do something stupid and hurt myself (hey depression sucks - and being this in love with someone... well it's like having your guts ripped out)... but I finally heard from her yesterday:
"I'm coming back, but I want you to promise me that we can be married. My father and mother disowned me, they're heavily Catholic. I am sorry I left the way I did, I am sorry for hurting you the way I did, I was just in a bad place - being pregnant, and knowing I have to tell my parents. I will see you soon, I still have a key."
Of course, I texted her back like "WTF WHERE ARE YOU" - hell I don't even know why I'm doing this - maybe out of revenge... but maybe for advice - she's so fucking stunning looking, she's so talented too. I'm broken without her, but I do know that will eventually pass - yet it's so hard to deal with such a loss. Sorry for rambling. Yeah I'll take her back... I might delete this later.

i confess i have been following a photography project online that takes pictures of nude women (everything- ass, tits, pussy) society doesnt consider "beautiful" trying to promote feminine power or desexualize the female body or something... and fapping to it furiously on a daily basis. it primarily consists of cute bbws, cute tattooed chicks, and hot chicks who must have mental issues and think they arent pretty or something. these are all everyday normal girl next doors who dont normally model. i posted a link and pictures up on this board last night but it got deleted for some strange reason. i dont know why all of the models are over 18. which also brings up another good point all of the models so far have been between the ages of 18 and probably 25. your loss motherless.