recently i am addicted to eat my girlfriends pussy. i love when she sits on my face and chokes me or just lets me eat her pussy for 30 mins straight. recently i came on her tits and asked her to let me lick it off and she said yes, and now today we 69ed she jerked me off while fingering my ass, i was eating her pussy as usual. she came a few times i told her i loved eating her pussy and her cum. she bent over and spread her ass. i blew my load on her amazing ass cheek and licked it off. she doesnt seem to mind that i wanna do this. shes 19 and i am 22. she acts like a girl who would NEVER do the thing we do, but when i actually get her going in bed its a whole different person. i cant eat my load by myself but when i am fucking her i always want to cum in her and eat it out.

confession:
i love watching girls get choked during sex. i want to find any videos i can.
i want to see them pass out and then be fucked

I am 41, have never been married, and my sex life kind a went to shit after I hit 35, so, occasionally I end up here.

This is my confession, it aint much, but it took me some courage to do this.

After I hit 35, my sex life died in a way. I was never beautiful, nor hot, but I did attract men, with no problem. Now, the men that want me are questionable, to say the least, and I am spending my time mostly alone. I have had a few flings, and one night stands, but regretted it every single time. I had a long term relationship which I threw away, over a stupidity, and now I am regretting it.

It may sound stupid, but I was with him for 7 years, and when the time came to talk about marriage, I realized that I had only two orgasms with him, for all that time. Going back, I was unsatisfied in two other relationships I had prior to him, in a similar way.

Then, it dawned on me - my first boyfriend ruined me.

We were seniors in hs, and he had prior been with this girl, everyone envied. When he showed interest in me, I was over the moon. We proceeded having a year long relationship, in which, he was more than dominant, sexually. Now, when I think of it, it is strange for someone who is 19, to have such confidence, and such kinks. He was my first, so I didnt second guess it, but I was cumming hard, when he choked me, slapped me around, called me names, he would even cum in my glass of water, and make me drink it during breakfast...

After we broke up, and I met my next bf, I realized how insane our thing was, and I was angry, felt betrayed and disgusted by myself, for letting someone treat me that way.

But, him, the next guy, and my not destined future husband, all were so gentle, and vanilla, and respectful to me. Yet, they didnt make me cum.

So he broke me. Made sex for me, being, degrading and hurtful, as the only way I could get off, but on the other side, I do not want to feel the way I felt with him, but I want the orgasms he gave me.

So, I am nowhere.

Help! Need opinions. I am a 30yo white chubby goth girl. I recently realized I am extremely attracted to older white/Hispanic fit men. I love going to the gym and ogling the guys there but I'm too shy to approach or hit on any of them. I feel like they'd never be attracted to me. What do you think? Am I overthinking it? Am I right?I'm not attracted to black dudes at all. Specifically just older men who are really fit and muscular. Lean or bulky.For context, I'm not like 300lbs or anything. Im just over 200, I have a pretty face, and ass and tits for days. But again I am chubby, got a belly, thick legs/arms/etc.Thoughts? Any advice for getting a muscle to destroy my holes and choke me out?
Cross posted because I'm desperate for opinions. 

this girl was in my class and god she's so petitte and hot...just looking at her gets my cock throbbing, thinkin all the things i could do to her... fuck I want to use her so much I want to eat her ass and her pussy and make her choke, gag and swallow my fat cock, I would fuck her throat so hard... oh and her asshole must be so sweet I want to destroy her asshole too... just look at her face she'd be so fun to pass around 5 men we could all use her at the same time fuck I would destroy this bitch, how would u do her?