My confession is that I am a married middle-aged man, however love to cross-dress and meet men to be used for sex.  I've been crossdressing my face very long time and no one in my family knows about this of course.  Sadly the pandemic put a crimp to that for a year and a half however I have finally been able to get out this last month on "business trips" to make up for lost time. 

On the first time out after the pandemic I went to a gay club where I ended up getting hit on by a couple Mexican guys. I didn't buy a drink the whole night while they flirted with me. I actually danced with them and one of them was brave enough to put his hand under my skirt while still at the club.  I rewarded them by taking them back to my hotel room and sucking their cocks. I swallowed every drop and one of them continued on to fucking me.  I felt so slutty but I needed it so bad.

There's just something about women's clothes that makes me want to please a man and let them do what they want to me.

Going out of town for work related reasons and I'm so fucking excited! I haven't done this since before covid started. Been looking forward to this for so long.

last time I was out of town for work I had to go to new orleans. Spring of 2019. Posted an ad online looking for some hotel fun. I created a fake email and everything. I expected a few replies on short notice but ended up with like 60 or 70. It blew my mind. Had my first gay experience there.

first night it was a college age black gay guy who came to the room. We agreed on a blow and go. He knocked on the door, I opened slightly and handed him my eye mask from the flight. he put it on, got in, dropped to his knees and deepthroated me until I nutted down his throat. I got so horny from this I thanked him by stroking his cock and spitting on it for lube until he came. when he did i used his cum as more lube until he came again. He begged me to fuck his ass but I said I want his whore mouth to suck me and get the fuck out. He did that and left without ever seeing my face. before he left he told me this was the hottest encounter he ever had and to message him anytime.

2nd night it was a honduran and black mixed woman in her 50s. she said she was in her 40s but I didn't believe it. No eye mask this time. She saw my face. I had told her I'd pay her 20$ for every outfit she brings and tries on and let me touch her. She earned 80$ that way. SHe also made 75$ licking my asshole (first time ever) and another 60$ letting me spit on her asshole and finger it. She refused money for sex. gave her 35$ to jerk me off and she watched me cum on one of the shirts she brought before she left. money well spent.

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I confess when I had a girlfriend back in 2012-2015 I used a gay app while working at a hotel (im bi) cause she wouldnt do anything with me constantly fighting etc.. and found a janitor about 10 years older then me at the hotel I worked at who was bi and married. We would get together nearly every shift on our break time and find a spot we wouldnt be caught and suck each off usually in a 69, and always swallow eachothers loads, was so great having a regular suck buddy..

The followi ng is a true story that happened to me recently.

So I recently returned from a business trip. While on the trip I had some free time to myself. There happened to be a clothing optional beach in the area and one day I decided to visit that beach. There was alot of guys there but there were some beautiful women there as well. I was able to get a couple of pictures of them, I have uploaded these to my uploads - hopefully they will be approved. Another day / evening I went to a swingers club in that area. The only stipulation with this club is that all males need to be fully nude. Anyway after a while a hot blonde came in with her boyfriend. The 2 of them eventually made their way upstairs and a few of us guys followed. They went into a bedroom and started making out with 2 other guys and a girl watching. after several minutes the other 2 guys and second girl left the room, the hot blond then came out in the hall and motioned for me to enter the room with her & her boyfriend. She began stroking my cock while sucking off her boyfriend. She had me cum on her nice firm tities while her bf came on her face!
I went back the following night and towards the end of that night, I was able to watch an 2 girl/ 4 guy orgy. The girls ate each other out while giving blowjobs and getting fucked. I did watch another guy fuck another girl but was not allowed to participate, I did attempt to get a blowjob from her but the guy said no. By this time I was really horny and wanted to cum, but alas the evening at the swingers club had come to an end. I left to head back to the hotel to settle for a masturbation session before falling asleep.
On my way back to my hotel I passed by an Adult Video store, so I decided to stop. The Adult store had some video booths, but to my surprise there also was a theater in the store. I decided to pay the extra fee for the theatre and entered. One room had a gay video playing but the other had 2 videos playing, I started to watch that one and a guy & girl came in but soon left the theater because one of the videos had a girl with a dick. She said that ruined her mood. They went back out and looked at the video booths, I soon followed and pretended I was checking the list of movies for the booths. They walked past me to go out to the regular part of the store, I followed but kept my distance as they were looking at erotic clothing. The 2 of them then decided to go back into the theater, after a minute I decided to re enter the theater. I found them in the second theater and thety were strting to make out. There was another guy in there that moved over to watch them as her BF started to rub her pussy. She began giving her BF & the other guy a double blowjob. Seening this i began to stroke me dick through my jeans. She got on her knees on the chair and gave the second guy a blowjob while her bf ate her out from behind. Her BF then motioned for me to come over , he had me rub her twat, it was very wet. I was able to stick 2 fingers inside her pussy. He then handed me a condom and told me to unwrap it and put it on my now rock hard dick, wich I did and told me to fuck his gf. She continued to suck off the second guy while stroking her BF cock. Her BF came on her backside while the second guy came on her face and I could not hold back any longer and filled the condom with my cum inside her soaking wet pussy. She then got up and pulled up her shorts and smiled at me & blew me a kiss and flicked her tongue at me and winked.
I never did get her name. But a sucessful trip

I love dressing my sissy husband in lingerie, making him stand at our hotel balcony or doorway smoking sexy Virginia Slims 120 Menthols and watch sissy give blow jobs. So much so that he only has sex with guys now because I like watching so much. Any women or married men have wives who love watching their husbands have gay sex? I get so turned on watching sissy passionately suck cock and swallow cum! 

My First cuck experience can be read about here

https://mlos.pika777.eu.org/VBCE8CAA

Well, after going back forth about whether or not I want to cuck again, the wife and I decided to do it. The first time was great. The gentlemen we met was respectful, cool, and just a all around good guy. Despite some guilt I felt afterward, I came twice. It was a totally completely erotic experience. The first hand account of my initial cuck experience can be read here: https://mlos.pika777.eu.org/VBCE8CAA

So Wednesday night my wife and I were laying in bed discussing the lifestyle. We hadn't really talked about in in the 3 weeks or so since it happened. After having a chat, we decided that we would John (not his real name) a call and see if he would be down for meeting us this weekend.

So the next day (Thursday) I called him in the afternoon and left a message on his voicemail. In less than 5 minutes he returned my call. Instead of meeting at a nightclub as we did on our initial meet, we decided to meet at the hotel room directly. I called my wife and let her know that I made the arrangement for tomorrow (Friday) night.

So the next day (Friday) I come home from work and find my wife in our bedroom going through her closet looking for a outfit to wear. She wanted to wear wear casual attire while I wanted her to sex sexy. After a quick debate, she agreed to dress sexy. She wore matching Black lingerie top and bottoms. She wore a White knee high skirt with a split in it, and a pair of Black high heels. Not quite stilettos. But dam near close.

So we had dinner at 5:00 (a little earlier than normal) and decided to swing by the Walgreens near our house to grab some Lube, and some EXTRA LARGE condoms. The condoms we brought last time were regular size. And I am not bullshitting when I say that the condom covered only half of John's dick. So we grab the goodies and head straight to the hotel.

We get there at about 6:45 and park the car, book the room, and head up to the room. The room was only 2 rooms over from the room we had a few weeks ago. The rooms was nice and clean. Basic room. King size bed, out door patio, and a night stand on each side of the bed with small lamps on them.

We were abit more at ease this week that we were a few weeks ago. We been there and done that. But nonetheless I still had some butterflies. I knew I would enjoy it, but I also new negative emotions like jealousy might creep in again.
So I texted John the room number. He already knew the layout of the hotel lobby from the last time. So he knew where the lifts were etc. Anticipation was building. So much so that it sort of felt like the first time all over again. My wife and I tried to chat about whatever while waiting for John. But we just stood there in silence. We were both filled with excitement and anticipation.

After a few minutes of silence, we heard the knock on the door. John was wearing all Blue jeans and a tight Black shirt. Both As soon as he walked in, I looked at my wife. My wife COULD NOT take her eyes off of him. I was sitting in a chair in the corner of the room. John walked up to me and we shook hands as he greeted me. My wife got up from the bed and walked toward us. I realized the door to our room was still open so I jumped up and closed it right quick.

M wife was already rubbing his chest as they smiled and flirted with each other. John took is shirt off and my wife continued to run her hands all over his chest and arms. Watching my wifes complete arousal turned me on and made me hard. But it still felt weird.
They started deep kissing. The kissing did not last long this time. They kissed for maybe a total of 20 seconds. My wife bent over and took off her high heels and threw them under the bed. She then undid Johns belt and pulled his underwear and pants down to his ankles. I was again completely awed by the sheer size of Johns dick. I am not gay, but a 11 inches of cock is a sight to behold when you see one face to face in the flesh. My wife held it in her hand for a few seconds and just stared at it. John then sat down in the chair next to the bed. The same chair I was sitting in when he arrived.

My wife got down on her knees and immediately started sucking the head of Johns cock. She was worshipping it. She would suck the head,, and then lick the length up and down. She would hold it up and then literally kiss it. Total worship and submission. She then pinned Johns dick to his belly and started sucking his thick black balls. She licked, she sucked, she kissed. At one point she basically had her whole face buried into his ball sack. I was sitting on a night stand just to the side of the chair where this was happening. I was rock hard, and had my cock in my hand slowly stroking. My wife was hot for John. I could tell she was excited. She tried to play cool and take it slow. But I know my wife. And she was excited.

John took off his shoes while still seated and then stood up so his pants would fall off completely. John pulled her close to him and pulled the zipper down on the back of her dress. He then slid the dress off of her completely. My wife then helped him remove her bra and he began to suck on my wifes titties. John then removed my wifes thong and backed her onto the bed.

She laid on the edge of the bed with her legs spread in the air. John leaned over on the bed, his HUGE DICK just hanging down. He leaned over and wrapped his huge arms around her torso , and then lifted her and put her further up onto the bed. The power in which he handled her turned me on. My wife was much more relaxed this time around with John. John spread my wifes legs to the point in which her calves were resting on the front of his forearms. My wife reached around and tried to guide Johns enormous 11 inch cock inside of her. She was wet, but it was not going in. I had the lube from the last time we met in a bag on the night stand. I grabbed the lube and handed it to John. He put a huge clump of lube all over his hand and worked it all over his dick.

His cock slid inside of her with little difficulty after he applied the lube. I heard my wife let out a HUGE GASP of satisfaction. In 6 years of marriage, my wife has NEVER made that sound. I was both jealous, as well as turned on by that.

John was long stroking my wife. He would pull his cock nearly all the way out with just the head staying in. And then he would slowly but steadily go back in. He would burrow all 11 inches of that Black cock inside her. His balls would rest on my wifes milky white ass cheeks momentarily before repeating the process all over again. I am not bull shitting when I say that after maybe a dozen strokes or so my wife was already wet as fuck. I was sitting hunched over DIRECTLY behind John. I put my face literally within a foot and a half of Johns balls. My wifes pussy was GRIPPING his huge Black cock. I couldn’t help myself. I pulled my cock out and started jerking off. I told myself that this time I would wait a while before I started jerking. But I couldn’t help it.

I got up and looked over John’s shoulder to see my wifes face. My wife was in her own world. Every thrust from John made her let out a groan. My wifes mouth was wide open. She was basically panting. I am not gonna lie. I was jealous that I never made her feel the way she was feeling now. I enjoyed it 100%. But I am still new to this. So seeing my wife totally surrender to this guy is still a bit intimidating to me.

I did something I did not do during our first encounter. I started talking to my wife. I asked her how it felt. I must have asked her 3 or 4 times before she replied. When she did reply she just looked at me with her mouth wide open and nodded yes.
I moved back for a better view. John was full of sweat by now. Watching my wife with legs spread wide, while taking Johns 11 inch black cock was intoxicating. I came on the floor where I was standing.
In my day to day life I don’t smoke very often. But I do like having a cigarette after sex. So I stepped out side on the patio to light up. I was probably out there for 5 minutes. When I came back in the room my wife was still on her back in the missionary position. But she now had her legs wrapped around Johns waist. John told my wife that she had a pretty face, and that he liked fucking her in the missionary position because he could see it. In less than a minute or so of me returning from the patio the action started to pick up. Both my wife and John were both groaning at this point. John let out a huge series of grunts and I could tell he was close to cumming. I laid back down in the bed behind John in a modified prone position so I could see John enter my wife from the back side. No sooner did I get there that I heard John say that he was cumming. His balls twitched uncontrollably. He came HARD!!! I was watching pure lust. The sexual energy was so intense cannot describe it.

I looked down and my cock was semi erect again. I just came less than 10 minutes or so ago. And I was hard again.
My wife had let her legs back down from John’s waist. They rested at her side. John was still inside her. He was laying on top of her resting as they were still in the missionary position. Down times like this is what bothered me on the first meet. The fucking was hot. But the cuddling made me jealous. I am not sure what other cucks think about this. Feel free to let me know.
While they were laying there my wife was running her hands up and down his back. Seeing her pale hands run the length of his shiney sweaty muscular back was erotic I will admit. They kissed for a few minutes and John got up. His dick was literally 8 inches LIMP. He pulled his condom off (Which only covered half his cock) and threw it on the Floor.
My wife sat up with her back pressed against the headboard. John went to the shower.
While John was in the shower my wife asked me if I was Okay. I told her I was.

John just finished drying off when my wife finished her cigarette. There was like 2 or 3 minutes of silence. But before I knew it John was back on the bed. John laid down on his back and my wife laid more or less on top of him. They started making out. My wife would alternate from kissing his lips, to kissing his shoulders and chest. John had her turn around so he could eat her pussy. They were in the 69 position for maybe 5 minutes tops.
My wife got up and turned around before sitting on John. She scooted her ass up and guided Johns 11 inch Black cock inside her. My wife placed her hands on John’s chest and started riding him while facing him. John brought out instincts I never seen in my wife before. For instance while my wife was riding him, she started twerking on him. After 4 years of dating, and 6 years of marriage I have NEVER seen my wife twerk. I could see my wifes vaginal juices dripping down Johns condom covered cock and she rode his dick. I had my cock in my hand and was jerking off again. I got directly behind my wife and put my face probably no more than 2 feet from her ass. I was just watching In awe at my wife’s pussy SWALLOW this 11 inch cock.

I literally saw her pussy gripping Johns dick when it was coming out. Her pussy lips were stretched to the absolute max. And the cum. My wife’s juices were just running all over his dick, his balls, the bed sheets. I mean again, I don’t regret it. But I could not help but feel a little jealous. I know with 100% certainty that I have never pleased her like this.

She then started grinding on Johns cock. Grinding hard. She was moaning very loud. It was probably no more than a minute or 2 later where she let out a series of huge gasps. I could tell that she came again. John had his huge black hands on her pale White greek ass cheeks as she rode him. His fingertips basically separated her ass cheeks, while his palms were squeezing her ass.

She was still riding him, but he pulled her closer to him from the waiste up. She was still in the riding position. But she was laying on top of John chest to chest. John did most of the work now. John was thrusting in and out of her while he was on the bottom and she lay on top of him. They didn’t stay in this position very long. They both got up and John put her on her hands and knees and started fucking her doggystyle.

My wife winced a bit on the first few strokes. She was good at taking his size in pretty much every position. But I could tell she felt doggystyle a bit harder to handle.

John took complete control of my wife. He grabbed a handful of her hair and was fucking her very hard. She would moan, she would wince, but she loved it. My wife’s pussy seemed to exist for Johns use. Watching her pale white ass cheeks jiggle every time Johns hips slammed into them was intense. Standing there with my cock in my hand I came again. For the second time. I sat down in the corner of the room for maybe 2 minutes while they fucked. I was again filled with mixed emotions. I got up and went downstairs to the lobby. Even though I had not had sex, I was thirsty as fuck. LOL!

I grabbed a bottle of pepsi and went back to the room. I had a great time as a whole. However the last bit of the night made me feel uncomfortable again. It is like I am fine with the sex. But the other cuddling and stuff like that is a little awkward for me.
So I get back to the room and they were finished with sex. Obviously John came again when I was in the lobby. I was gone for like 10 or 15 minutes bullshitting with the attendant.

So anyway, I go back in the room and my wife is laying totally on top of John. Belly to belly. She was resting her chin on his chest looking up at him. John was rubbing her whole body. Her would rub her back, then let his hands go down to her ass where he would run his middle finger up and down the length of her ass crack. Things moved pretty quickly. John got up and took a shower. My wife was till laying down. She asked me again if I was okay. I told her I was. And I was okay. I sat at the foot of the bed and could not help but notice how LOOSE my wifes pussy was. I asked her how many times she came. She told me 4 times.

John dried himself off and got dressed. My wife then went and showered up. John is a cool dude. Very polite, very friendly, and very respectful. We talked for the entire time that my wife was showering.

My wife got out of the shower and dried herself off. She walked over to John and gave him a kiss Before getting dressed herself. She had trouble zipping up the back of her dress. So she backed up into John and asked him to give her a hand with the zipper. John obliged and zipped it up for her. He gave her a ten second neck rub and went to the night stand to grab his belt.

We left the hotel separately. My wife is absolutely PARANOID that someone will see us, or even that the hotel receptionist will get suspicious. LOL!!!! So John left first. Then we left. The receptionist wasn’t there. I dropped the swipe card in the little box at the receptions desk, and went home.
My wife asked me if everything is okay. And I told her it was. And it was okay. I was happy about the night, And happy that we all met up again.

I asked her if she liked Johns huge black cock. She laughed and didn’t answer. So I asked again in a playful manner. She said that John does have a great dick. But then she said that I am the only man she loves. All in all. I think that the both cuck experiences I have had were good. We will definitely do it again. If anyone who reads this has ever cucked before, let me know how it felt for you.

I attached a pic of Johns dick