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i have a confession.
the passed few weeks have been hard on me, i will spare you the details and just say this to start:
i am conflicted in myself, it seems im waiting on something to make me snap, just so i can beat the fuck out of something then break down and cry.
i am a male, about 25 years old.
the love of my life, just so happens to be single again, and i come down with this "psychotic episode".
i've placed myself into the sidelines, just to make sure i knew that i SHOULDNT try. i love her, in no way would i purposefully hurt her.
but as i was saying, i am conflicted and on the verge of "fuck it".
But, she helps me. she is what i need for a calming effect.
i see her, i see a future, OUR future.
when i am with her, there is no thought of "when will i get my next toke of weed".
she IS my toke of weed, she is my blue dream, she is my candy kush.
but i sideline myself, and all i can chant to myself is "best i can do, is help her along and keep her happy, because all i can do, is enjoy her company"
i want her to find someone that wants to make her happy, the last guy didnt work out to well.
where was i going with this?
i forgot, but short story into a sentence:
i love her, i cant be with her because im too fucked in the head, but she still calms me while we're together, even while she doesnt do anything other than sit there.
she is, all in all, a beautiful woman and worth the world, and i just hope she can find someone that sees her, the way i do.
