I want to hook up with a sexy, super fem shemale, not just to fuck, but to love. Wether or not im gay because of this fantasy doesnt really bother me. Problem is, im too much of a chickenshit to make that gigantic of a step into "deviance". Everyone i know would probably shun me. and i wouldnt want to lose all my friends and hurt my family over something that might not even work out.

Oh, and lets not forget that i already have a g/f thats helping me get through school and paying all the bills... but i honestly dont love her anymore...

things could be worse, but ill be fucked if this doesnt suck ass.

:(

I used to work as a milk man about 20 years ago up near Hull on the east coast and there was a women who had not paid her bill after about 5 weeks. she was OK to look at but a little on the large size. asked her for the money on friday of week 5 and no sorry still can't pay the money. i told her she had "better have the money the following week or she would get it" it was building up quite a bit by this point. following week she aswered the door in her dresing gown as usual and still couldn't pay so i took her inside and opened up her dressing gown. think she thought i was going to fuck herbut to be honest she was a little bit big for me and not really my type so i got a glass milk bottle and pushed it right up her pussy. it was on of the old ones about 5 inches tall but about as wide as a LARGE orange. it was one of the dirtiest sights i have ever seen in my life her streatched open by the bottle with her legs bent open wide leaning against her kitchen counter with her tit's hanging out. you could see up into her puss through the bottom of the bottle and the wrighting property of nothern dairies wish i had had a camera. following week she paid in full and seemed happy and smileing which was a little surpriasing about a month late she said thank you. didn't know what for as i was hardly being kind and gentle but turned out she had not been able to pull the bottle out and had gone to the bathroom to try and have a hot bath and use some soap to free it and her husband had found her with the bottle in her puss still. he hadn't been interested in her for a while and seeing her like this had turned there marage around. so not all bad a confession hope. so if your going to give out Hail Mary's then give one to her which as Mary was her name

Fuck, world didn't end, Guess I have to do all that Christmas shopping anyway and pay those bills due by the 22 or I lose services...

II confess i read my moms journal when i shouldnt of. ill tell you about it now

am looking for some advice from a bunch of random people as i feel you might be more honest.
Im 28, i barely get by in life and live on my own. I see my mother all the time, but she is real real poor.
shes incapable of working a job and heavily in debt. She lost her husband and he left us with all these bills.
My mom has been depressed for awhile and hasnt eaten out or gone out in awhile. I have tried helping but theres just no way i can make her happy.

A few months ago, my mom met this guy she was seeing and she told me how excited she was to see him. She was truly in love and was so happy and i liked seeing her like that. i met the guy and was happy when i noticed how sucessful the guy is. He is super rich, clean etc, and i was proud of my mother for meeting a man who seemed nice and was taking care of her. My mom was happier, was dressing super nice, had bought a new laptob etc, gone out to nice dinners and everything was ok.... but in the back of my mind i was really wondering "why is this guy being so nice to my mom,hes younger and can clearly spoil any model and get interest" I dont mean to sound rude toward my mom she looks fine i guess but he can do better, but thats not what this isabout, its just gone past my mind thinking what he sees in her. MY suspicions were correct finally when i came across my moms journal.

I shouldnt of read it, but my moms always been a writer. She always expresses her feelings and writes her thoughts down. Very outsoken. So i read the 1st page where she started talking about her new boyfriend, basically it started out with her saying she thought she found the right guy etc and loves him, he treats her so good blabla.... and at the end of it she said something about withholding sex to find out if shes feeling it a few dates later after finding out what kinda guy he is. I read by a few pages and she confesses that she is heads over heals for him and decided to just give him "oral sex" she claims that he said it was the best he ever had and everythign was ok.. I kept reading and one of the latest pages expained what i thought all along and it makes me sad, and i dont know what to do.

The page stated with"i feel like a sexslave" it starts where she talked about"i just wanted to make him happy" to "he wants it all the time". My mother wrote about how the guy will just sit and watch a football game, or stay on the computer for 2-3 hours and call her over to suck his cock. He never wants sex, he just works online alot and watches movies, and tv and sports and just wants to sit back and get his dick sucked. My mother wrote that she blew him for 3 hours before, then ate dinner and blew him another few hours. She said she feels worthless. She said she tried telling him that she wanted to tone it down but the guy said"you are my toy you do what i say" and told her if she stops then hes leaving . My mother wrote, besides the blowjob thing, when we're out and stuff everything is fine its just his constant need for wanting her to blow him is way too much and he doesnt care she doesnt want to. Sheclaims she wants to stop but doesnt want to lose the godo moneyfree life.

i dont know what to do? the guy is a blowjob maniac i guess but hes not abusive or anything physically. he/along with myself enjoy a good cockworshipper but shes just not into it so often.

I confess everything is going wrong that can go wrong. I've had every single one of my best friends betray me at this point. One won't talk to me because I'm not christian enough for him, the other I dropped because he was talking behind my back and setting up situations for me to get hurt and go into his arms and get back with him. I'm being harassed by some crazy girl who's in love with my boyfriend who sends me threats and insults and I just found out yesterday that my best friend has been hitting on my boyfriend and may have had a relationship with him behind my back. My mother is too obsessed with herself and 3 boyfriends to actually do stuff and pay the bills so there's no internet, cable, heat, or hot water. I have to stay with my 8 year old ADD brother who never shuts up and I just want to blow my brains out.

This isn't weird by motherless standards but pretty unique. Im a survivor of a rare form of leukemia and I was wonder if there are vids of cancer survivors or patients around or pornstars who fit the bill. Not talking breast cancer here. Something closer to pale skin and hair thats falling/fallen out or shaved. In other words side effects of chemo. Thanks

I once spent �600 on telephone sex lines. I was going through a stressful time in my life and drinking waay too much. The phone bill sobered me up. I could barely afford to pay it. Never did that shit again.