Porn is ruining my life. I should be working right now but all I can do is sit here stroking my cock to all the fine asses and tits I see. I go out in public anywhere and all I want is to pull my cock out and stroke it to all the hot fuckmeat I see. I wish I could find someone as twisted as myself to encourage me to. Or have someone who just randomly pulls out my cock, or demands that I produce my cock, for the sole purpose of milking me at their whim no matter where we are then continuing on like nothing happened after I blow my load. I have to admit also that my latest fetish, interest, desire or whatever you want to call it is to truly experience a power exchange. I wish I could walk in to home with a woman wearing stockings, heals and a strap-on to me treated like a whore, to be made her whore pushing me to my knees, demanding I suck her cock, getting throat fucked until she decides it's time to pack my ass with her fake cock. I want her to fuck me hard and demand that I not touch my cock myself while she pounds my ass deeply while degrading me until making me blow cum. Then she could suck it up and give me a big sloppy kiss making me eat the mess of cum I made or feed it to me to complete my degradation.... I feel like that's the next step of my fall down this rabbit hole of indecency.... Unfortunately I haven't found someone to take those next steps with...

MY SECRET JOURNAL AS A SLUT

IThe follow is an excerpt from one night in November lst year.I posted something in CL in an area close to the glory hole bookstore so i could met up with any CL guys as well anyone that showed up a the gh. I wrote it as each encounter happened using my phone. there are typos, grammar issues etc because i was writing as it happened and my mind was focused on other things at the moment and didn't bother editing it later.

NOVEMBER 18th

Load 1:
J from the boat docks-gave him my # after he fucked me at a gh to call wheneve he needed me. sent him a text that i was available for use so we met up at some unlit dead end street with a small park-he hiked up my dress and my tits spilling out of my bra he fucked me over a jungle gym-felt so good to feel the presence of hot cum inside me again-it's been nearly 2 weeks since I last made myself available to be by used by anyone in the general public who was interested in fucking me like the filthy public cum dumpster whore i am

LOAD 2:
At the gh, but I grew desperate and decided to go against my better judgment and drive about 15 minutes south of the bookstore to meet some guy in his garage… I showed up and after a few minutes was worried it was going to be a bust but after I got him excited and hard he alerted me he was about to come turned me around and punched his dick into my body and I felt his hot load shooting in the me… There's nothing like that second load entering me and adding to the already volume of cum already inside me from the first guy… It's a sensation few women experience given how disgusting most women would consider The notion of multiple men… Strangers no less…shooting there hot loads of cum into them. I on the another hand am the total opposite I don't think it's possible for me to have too many men come inside me in one night if I could have one wish I would love it if I could have 100 strangers come inside me in one night

LOAD 3:
this was the best one of the night an email responder from my craigslist posting at four in the morning… Some guy is like, let's get together I want to fill u cunt with come… I replied to that email telling him I would love nothing more than to feel his hot cum being pumped inside of me. He told me I had to come pick him up because he didn't have a car and that we would have to go somewhere outside because he didn't have anywhere to fuck me. I drove to his house in the old part of downtown . not a very good neighborhood picked him up… He was a person of color in his 20s we drove a couple blocks down and found an alley. I parked he pulled his cock out I started sucking it and then told him I wanted him to fuck me over over the hood of my car. We proceeded to get out and I pulled my dress up I pulled my tits out from my bra and grab his cock and pleased it against my body and pressed until the tip of his cock pierced me… I felt his large black cock slide deep into me pushing the come already inside me further into into my body. He told me he hadn't come in sometime and that he had a huge load for me he slammed his dick in me several times…..the pace quickens and I knew he was about to abrupt and I could feel the hotblast of seamen shooting to me… He came an amazing amount totally filled me up and it feels unbelievable I'm still tingling over it I have three loads of cum inside me… And I can't tell you the indescribable desire I have to have so many more pumped inside of me its still dark but early in the morning and I'm going to do the best I can to stock as many people as I can in the shortest amount of time possible before have to go back home I would love it if I could get another 7 to 10 loads inside me that would be a victory!!

LOAD 4: (R):
turn out to be one of my regulars … He came up to ABS around 5ish... I showed him videos of me sucking other guys cocks at the Gloryhole and then rode him reverse cowgirl in the sitting position… I told him in detail as he fucked me how indescribably amazing it felt to have his cock penetrate me... Only to be outdone by the overwhelming sensation I experience as his load pulsates down his shaft and pours into me… His load is extremely hot…leaves me tingling me quivering… It's always a good day when R’s load takes its place in my body along with all the other ones already inside

LOAD 5: (T):
another person that is fucking me on a semi regular basis every time I'm in town! And oh so how I love having his cock inside me it's a powerpack punch of eight solid inches with a bit of a curve on the shaft that sounds me into next week and I love every single Power packed penetrated thrust into me… He could fuck me all night long and I would be a happy camper I love his cock so much… I'm so happy that we reconnected because it's been too long… since the lst time when he dumped an enormous load into my body! He was so turned on by having his cock buried inside me … I must've felt so unbelievably cummy and wet from all the sperm already inside me… If you're going to fuck me you better love putting your cock inside me knowing that there's been multiple men been there before you and he definitely fits that bill… As he fucked me I could feel some of the come running down my leg from earlier encounters that morning and while I thought our session was coming to an end it was at that moment that he began fucking me at a quickening pace and told me that he was about to come inside me for a second time… I was in heaven. I drove to where he was working… And that he fucked me in an abandoned vacant government subsidized housing development. I'm currently sitting at at TB parking lot trying to line up a new person from CL to come and put dick inside me and come in me

LOAD 6:
back at the gh….ball guy that came into my booth and had a hard time coming but jerked off and slammed into me at the last moment

Load seven:
another stranger that came in my booth and I sucked him off then he spun me around and jerk his cock off and shot a very nice very hot load of come all over my ass… I'm pretty sure some of it made its way into my body which is always a bonus

Load eight:
another anonymous Gloryhole load of the night… Beautiful cock sucked him then out of the clear blue he declared through the whole I want to come in your ass😊 I turned around, arched back, k slid my panties down and slowly inching my way back onto his cock unfurled and hard all 10 inches. I chirped with the delight as his dick slowly disappeared into my body. I must say there's something special and sinfully delightful about riding a cock through a Gloryhole… Every single thing about that complete stranger is an unknown I don't know how Talley is I don't know what color hair he has no idea what he looks like sometimes I don't even know what color he is all I know is his kayak is the treating through a hole and that's all I need to know do you spread my legs and let him put his dick inside me until he is ready to shoot it into my body… There's nothing comfortable about it ir convenient or easy but being a Gloryhole whore committed to always having unprotected sex is one of the most gratifying things in my quest to truly be an unspeakable whore… I reject condoms and refuse to allow people to fuck me with one.

LOAD 9: …
C from the gangbang with his amazing cock that looks like a ….. he was so excited to see me and I too was equally excited to know that he would soon be deep inside me again pumping me full of semen as he had done all throughout the summer. Suck this cock for no less than 30 seconds before he couldn't wait any longer… I was on all fours with my face buried on the floor of the bookstore well he hovered over me and drove his dick balls deep into me… And what a prize he delivered into my body a big ass load of hot thick cum

LOAD 10:
in the best was yet to come my favorite regulars for the gh….RC man he fucked me for a while in there was so much cum n me and leaking out all while he was working me but in the end he deposited a nice load in the me and I was very thankful

Load 11:
some CL responder not far from GH.... I showed up at the house and he fucked me and his couch and I got a nice load put inside me… As I told him I was so grateful to have his load take its rightful place in the pantheon of other loads buried deep inside me tonight

LOAD 12:

CL responder Meet up at Glory Hole: What a small world… It just so happened to be the maintenance man from the Days Inn where I used to get a hotel room meant to fuck men when I posted on craigslist I so remember him too… I remember him always eyeballing me just a little bit too long… Like he was really interested in me… Most notably I remember when he asked me, The very first thing he ever said to me about my boobs…..Not withstanding the very reason why I had a hotel room there to begin with which was to indiscriminately fuck is many strangers as possible… I still found his question rather rude and irked me even though I was still friendly to him afterwards… Well it turns out he knew more than I thought and he was quite attracted to me. He told me that He was aware that I was meeting with men from the craigslist to have sex… He told me he desperately wanted to join in. He told me that he would go in the room next-door and listen to me get fucked and jack off . That whole story ended up being rather an erotic part of our entire first encounter.... He told me all the times that he jacked off thinking about me and I told him that finally at long last the next load that he shoots thinking about me is going to go where where it really belongs inside my body… He fucked me until it hurt he laid me on the floor of the ABS. and fucked me until into next week… He repeatedly told me how much he could sense all the cum that was inside me…it seem to excite him until he came and filled me up Ive never seen anyone run out of the gh booth faster than him after cumming to his senses……lol