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All of my nature wants to do something gor the Devil and my Lord that I like. But then I remember how mad I got. I blamed him for not communicating well and I did the same. I got so angry and anger actually was only me craving a little more space around him. We all have different ways of expressing the craving and care. I always liked his personality and way he expresses. Idk why my mind associate him being away as Him not liking me. But that's the way I felt and attacked. Truth is I don't feel anger or mad or something. I just crave and crave growth. The way He likes it and ways where I can get a little bit of just a little more space at His feet. So when He needs me I can do something. My submission towards Him always is bit scared that I am not doing enough. I guess that's normal when you care, you always want to be better. I felt I am failing because my Devil vanished again after saying He won't. Maybe I did failed then got mad because I crave being better. Understanding better. I don't wanna change a bit of Him. I just want to know more, walk the path more and have tasty playful reminders that we are okay. It's just two way street my Lord always agreed on that. So how am I do be good when I don't have chance to check where is His mind so I can be better. And that made me panic of losing what I crave, Him. I don't know is it attacking the personal space fact I just want to be there for someone I like nnd lust and playful with 

i confess that i love older men but it is painful when their health starts to deteriorate and you're still young and healthy. Lost my Phil to a heart attack this time last year, I guess this is "anniversary syndrome". sigh.

Isn't it a shame that you can't be honest and truthful on the web by posting as yourself, or speaking your mind then being attacked by people that don't agree with you, in fear of some NUT going on a personal rampage to expose all your little quirks and personal information? Sometimes it pays to be anonymous. You have stalkers and fakes pretending to be people that they aren't in hopes to "friend" people and use them for their own twisted games. Even in these boards, if you bring up a topic which is your own opinion, you fall under attack by someone with a differing opinion, rather than them calmly voicing their own opinion. There's no need for attacks. It's not like I'm trying to convince anyone of anything, just voicing my opinion. People need to share their opinion without attacking others. Less judging and more open-mindedness. Maybe I'm just a peaceful person in real life and the others aren't.

Couldn’t help but to think how much this little slave changed over the years tasting that connection with the Devil. A piece that was needed the piece we find and our best bubble up. The committed connection kept on poking me, that’s why it’s so easy for Devil to keep me on my toes. And what have I been thinking about is as well the tasty soul of the Devil even tho I keep on calling him cruel and cold. One really kinky Devil but just as well what got me trapped is something more of him. Perhaps i am more scared of his soul and cope with Devil with my Devilish side. And the need to admit that, to admit slave attacks Devil just because when tasting his soul i freak out the most. And refuse to admit I believe in it. And get all crazy because deep down I believe and the connection won’t let me rest most of the time, the inability to resist to dirty things and the belief combined with taking the attention is his odd combination. Devil force me to fish haha.. if all i do is attention grabbing and all You do is attention grabbing.. then let me fish :p
You created just very nice masterpiece with devilish and such warm colors.. just look at it

INCUBUS ATTACK, kinda hot if u ask me..

Mars Attacks a hot babe at the mall lol