here goes my confession... thank you motherless for having a place to finally confess my deepest secrets...

ive always been submissive.. but i've always felt inferior too. since i'm brown (indian), i have felt inferior to white and black people.. and ive always had fantasies where guys take control of me like im a sex object.. as if i have no feelings.. use and abuse me hard and rough.. throw me out after they are done.. hurt me, call me names, make me cry... laugh at me.. tell me how im not as pretty as other girls.. white, black, asian girls... make me do perverted and dirty things that pretty girls wouldn't be made to do...

im 26 f indian girl living in california.. i recently got married (arranged)... i was raised very conservative... im very short 4'8.. 36D-30-34... anyway, i just wanted to get that off my chest.. thank you for reading.

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Somewhere around 2018, I decided I wanted to finally get a happy ending massage. I went into one of those generic "Massage" parlors that's in a small shopping center. It actually had a buzzer at the door for them to unlock.At the desk was an older Asian woman probably in her late 40s. I asked for a 30 minute deep tissue massage and she took me over to one of the rooms. She told me to undress, lay facedown, and put the towel over my back. I did it the short way which only covered my butt but when she came in she lifted it totally off my body, for sure got a look at me naked, and put the towel lengthwise. Overall, the massage was okay and not too strong, although I wished it was. I can tell I was at the right place when eventually she took the towel off and are rubbing my bare ass. Also, she definitely focused on my inner thighs. Before the flip over to the front, there was the hot towel wipe down, followed by a light touch, almost tickle with the fingertips all over my body especially the inner thighs and basically near my asshole. This got my really hard.When she asked me to flip over she actually did cover my privates.  While standing at my head, she did a little massage of my chest, and not too long she worked her way down to my to abs and grazed my dick. I opened my eyes and to my surprise, it was a different woman who was a younger 20 something Asian and cute. She gave a stroking gesture and asked if I wanted it. I said, "Sure if that's okay with you" and she said, "I don't want to get in trouble". I said that I won't tell anyone. She went ahead and poured more oil on my dick and went on with the happy ending. They really know how to give good hand jobs with a nice firm grip on the shaft when stroking and massaging the balls and taint. I'll be honest, I probably lasted only 1 minute at most because I hadn't masturbated or had sex in a week on purpose for a huge load. And it was definitely hard and a lot. She got me so good my first squirt went past my head and the others up my neck. She was certainly surprised but pleased with her job. 

Since that day I've gone to a handful of different places, some more than once. It's been a few years since the last time but I plan on going again.

For those that have had a happy ending massage, what have your experiences been like? Please share too. 🙂

Hi i am 32 Asian women and i love being abused during sex.I like it when i give head and the guy slaps my face calling me a slut then i lay on my back and they fuck my pussy hard well slapping my tits around and squeezing them like a worthless whore then i play like i don't want anal then they force fuck my ass doggy style well pulling there cock in and out my ass stretching it making me gap then when they are about to cum they pull out and throat fuck me well chocking me with there hands and cum down my throat.

My confession.

Three years ago, I spent my summer holiday visiting Thailand. I met a lot of smoking hot asian girls whom I of course fucked senseless. There were many hot nights with lots of alcohol involved, so it had to go like it would go. I did unprotected sex, that I regret painfully today.

Upon my arrival at home, I went testing myself for STD and I turned out to be HIV positive. This really broke down my world, I hit rock bottom and I was probably depressed at some point. I got over it which lead me to what this confession is about.

After getting over the really hard times, I felt angry. Somehow I directed this anger towards others by having a lot of unprotected sex. I must've slept with some 20 different girls during the last two years. Now, I don't know if they're infected but there's a good chance some of them are. Luckily the medicines these days help you live a longer life and the earlier you get on them, the better the prognosis. I regret this behavior profoundly at this time and day. Should I tell, have them test themselves, get on treatment which will better prognosis, but put myself at penal risk; or should I just keep silent and let this one fly?

It would be very dumb to tell them directly or indirectly. If there's an investigation it will all lead back to me quickly. Shit, I don't know guys. And please no judgemental posts.