When I was 19 years old and in college in Florida, I got really heavy into drugs. Mainly party drugs like coke and ecstasy, and of course plenty of weed, but on occasion other drugs as well. I was out of control and living one big party life on my parent's dime while they struggled mightily to pay for me to have the opportunity they never had and go to college. Looking back I feel like a total asshole about it now as they wanted nothing more than for me to be successful and not have to struggle...sorry, I digressed.

Anyway, since I had no money and wanted to keep up my partying lifestyle and since I was always very athletic, in shape and considered "good-looking", through one of the people I met in the party scene I ended up doing some modeling to make some extra money. Pretty low rent stuff, nothing glamorous, but a couple hundred bucks a week.

This quickly evolved into the opportunity to do some "videos". It started with just masturbation videos of me lying in bed, or on a couch or in the shower jerking off. I figured I was going to do it anyway so why not get paid for it and I was getting paid $100-200 per day that I did a shoot. I could sometimes do 3 or 4 scenes in a day. The guy running the operation said he was impressed by my "re-load" ability and also that I had just the right cock for it...I'm about 8 inches, decently thick and my dick looks perfectly formed from shaft to head and can blow pretty big loads even after only a little break in between. I knew that these were primarily for gay guys to watch but I didn't care. If someone gets off from seeing me, so fucking what. I did these for a while and then he asked one day if I'd want to do some full sex movies and photo shoots and showed me some of his portfolio and all things considered the chicks looked pretty hot and we were now talking more like $300-500 per day so I jumped right at the chance.

It was a crazy scene and pretty much everything you wanted was at your fingertips. Women and drugs galore. Parties every night after shooting. We were all in the 18-22 age bracket so it was just a no responsibility show. But as quickly as I made money it went back out the door on drugs and partying. Then one night when we were partying at the main house this director used for shooting videos, him and a couple of the other "big wigs" in their operation asked me if I would be willing to do some more hardcore shit. At first I was thinking they meant bondage, s&m type stuff, but they quickly made it clear they were talking gay action. I immediately said not a chance, I was straight and no way I could do it. They pushed the matter (and a coffee table with a big pile of blow on it) and said that all the actors in their gay shoots are straight guys because that is the look they wanted in their videos, strong masculine men, not femboys. The guys just do "gay for pay" and they also said I could make up to a $1000 per shoot depending on the circumstances. At that point my eyes lit up and I think they knew they had me. I asked them more questions and they said I could be strictly a top and receive blow jobs, that I didn't have to get fucked or suck or kiss anyone if I didn't want to. I could also do bi scenes where a female actress or two would be involved. I said, what the fuck, let's give it a try.

The next week they had scheduled me in for my first scene. I was shaking like a leaf prior to which was totally not like me. In the other stuff I had already done I was totally calm and had no issues getting naked, getting hard and fucking in front of other people. It was a one on one scene with me and another guy. I was going to be swimming naked in the pool and then get out and immediately go to the lounge chair next to the pool when the "pool guy" was going to show up to service the pool and eventually me who was masturbating while watching him clean the pool. I actually was having a difficult time getting hard which was totally not the norm for me, but he came over and began blowing me for a while and soon enough I did get fully hard. I had sunglasses on and just kept my eyes closed and picturing hot women. I put on a condom and ended up fucking him in a few different positions and then to my surprise he end up blowing his load on my chest as he was riding me, then slid off my cock, dropped back down and sucked me to completion taking my load all over his face.

I said afterward that it wasn't that bad, but I didn't think I wanted to do it again...until I got my next offer and more cash. It went on like this for a while and me just doing the fucking and getting sucked. I still was primarily doing straight shoots though. Then the director came to me with a proposal for a scene. It would be me and this girl I had done some straight scenes with and we would be a "married" couple and then another guy who was coming to our house to do some repairs. But he wanted it to be a scene where me and her completely serviced this guy. We all were going to suck and fuck each other, no holds barred type stuff. I was extremely hesitant but he offered up my biggest payday yet and it was a good chunk of money for 4-5 hours of total "work". I was so far gone into the scene at that time that I agreed and said let's do this.

The day came and again I was nervous. I did all my usual prep on my "manscaping" and where I normally do everything I can to keep myself fresh down below, this time I added the step of the diet one of the other male actors recommended and his full enema routine to completely clean me out. The worst thing on a porn set when anal is involved is having a shit accident. It came time for the scene and we were in the bedroom on a king size bed where I was fucking the girl for a while then the "repair" man came in, he joined in with me "thinking" he was just going to play jointly with my wife but then he starts licking my balls and ass and pulling out my cock from the wife's pussy and sucking on it. We go through some more motions and she is sucking him then she tells me she wants to see me suck him and this is it, the moment I took a cock in my mouth. I did what I had to do and then after he fucks her it was my turn to take his cock. I was laying on my back as she sat on my face and then he started fucking my ass. Hurt like hell but I had to put up a good front. He even made a comment that got into the video about how tight my ass was. Anyway, we finished the scene after everyone had been fucked and sucked and I went out that night with some of the other people from set and we got destroyed on drugs and booze. I was fucked up beyond belief and when I got home that night I said that was it, I was done. Absolutely no more of all of it. The drugs the porn, nothing. The next day I called up the director and said to pull me from the stuff he had me scheduled for the next week. He tried to convince me and told me what a fucking amazing job I had done the day before, but I told him I had to get out. I couldn't handle the life and really was regretting all of it. I pulled the plug that day and never looked back.

So, somehow through all of this I didn't flunk out of school. I ended up completing my degree and living out a pretty mundane, boring college life and working a bullshit part-time job in one of the offices on campus answering phones and shit. Really nobody in my "normal" life had any clue about what I had done. My parents were none the wiser about anything I did partying or whatever and were proud as could be the day they saw me get my degree. I started a job with a top consulting firm and in the decade plus since, have worked hard and progressed so much in my career that I look at the "crazy" money I was making from porn and laugh at how little it is compared to now. I am engaged to a very attractive and smart girl who is an attorney and makes plenty of money herself, but also has no clue about my prior life.

I guess my biggest fear is that one day I am going to come on here and see one of my videos front and center. I know they are out there in various places on the web, but they obviously weren't under my real name and the look I had back then was very different than it is now where I am clean cut hair, have a beard, and even back then in a bunch of the scenes I had bleached blonde hair for a while and a deep Floridian tan. I guess my real name and SSN is on file with the porn company somewhere so that could somehow get out, but generally speaking I got away free and clear without any repercussions. Crazy the journey our lives take.

Monica's slut is too hot, she has the body of a porn actress and a horny face, Monica seems to be good at anal sex, I'd like to check it out

Simply put, i am a writer. I write smut. And i've actually gained a little following, it's quite adorable.

However, i've hit a roadblock. I'm just no good at writing lesbian sex scenes. I'm not talking about pornography, i'm talking about pure, lust for one another love between two females.

Seeing as how this is motherless and it's FILLED to the brim with amateur stuff, i have but one humble request. Give me the links to some videos that shows such unbridled lust for one another.

I would look myself, but i figure the mass-userbase on motherless could help me with their already-memorized favorites.

I dont care what it is, so long as it's veritably REAL. Not actresses, not paid for, just two chicks on a cam going at each other. preferably with a clear view of what's going on since it's going to be used for descriptive detail.

It's actually kind of funny how lacking i am here since my M/F and M/M works are... erm "Drooled over" by the fans.

So yeah, mucho me gusta for any help that can be given!
Luv you guys ;D

I love the incest fantasy.

It seems like a lot of main stream porn actresses get suckered into the occasional incest video (step-relations or Mom Teaches Sex where they don't outright acknowledge the mom is also part of the threesome or lesbian mom-daughter that somehow is more acceptable) like Lisa Ann, Siri, and August Ames. It's great watching Zoey Holloway or Tara Tainton or Corey Chase go all in on incest fantasy, but there's something even better about that rare treat from these mainstream ladies.

Know any other videos like these? Links?

I'm looking for help finding a porn actress. Her name is listed as only "Misty" in a video called Real Sex Magazine Braces Faces. Does anyone have a stream to her scene? Anyone know if she's ever been in any other scenes? She is very cute and took it in the ass for what seemed like her first time.

I'm 33 and have had sex with only one girl in my life. It's embarassing and lame, but it's my reality. The one girl I've been lucky enough to fuck is this black chick who I worked with and dated when I was 22-23. I never really felt like I loved her and she really just wanted to take my virginity, I think. The thing is, I can't seem to get her out of my head. I know I don't love her, but for some reason, I get really eager to call her and rekindle what we had, knowing very well that even if we did get back together, I wouldn't want to be with her. She always said she was going to be a big time actress (what a joke) and wouldn't let me take nude photos of her, but one day surprised me by letting me video tape us having sex, saying she "trusts me". I can't help but keep going back to this video and masturbating while watching, thinking about how if I had the chance to fuck her again, I'd tell her how much I love her and want to have her as my wife, but then after I cum, I think how disgusted I am with her, how she cheated on me and how I'd rather jack off alone in my room for the rest of my life than be with her. What gives?

Here's a photo. I'll share more if anyone is interested. I have clips of the sex video as well that I can share. Her name is April.

I'm 33 and have had sex with only one girl in my life. It's embarassing and lame, but it's my reality. The one girl I've been lucky enough to fuck is this black chick who I worked with and dated when I was 22-23. I never really felt like I loved her and she really just wanted to take my virginity, I think. The thing is, I can't seem to get her out of my head. I know I don't love her, but for some reason, I get really eager to call her and rekindle what we had, knowing very well that even if we did get back together, I wouldn't want to be with her. She always said she was going to be a big time actress (what a joke) and wouldn't let me take nude photos of her, but one day surprised me by letting me video tape us having sex, saying she "trusts me". I can't help but keep going back to this video and masturbating while watching, thinking about how if I had the chance to fuck her again, I'd tell her how much I love her and want to have her as my wife, but then after I cum, I think how disgusted I am with her, how she cheated on me and how I'd rather jack off alone in my room for the rest of my life than be with her. What gives?

Here's a photo. I'll share more if anyone is interested. I have clips of the sex video as well that I can share. Her name is April.

I started a love relationship with an Asian porn actress, I will not say her name for her privacy, but the sex is incredible, I masturbate with her videos when she is not there, or she is tired, I love to see how the other guys fuck her in the video and sometimes girls, she is a normal girl without surgeries, I love her, although sometimes I feel like she is going to break my penis

My girlfriend (not releasing any names)is a college student and a very talented theater actress, I'm proud of what she loves to do. Our sex life is great, but she always wants to get it over with. So we haven't has sex more than 25 minutes in a while. It pisses me off. So ever since my girlfriend's schedule gets super booked with classes and rehearsals, I go out and cheat on her with her best friend, who's 16 years old. I love my girlfriend but I'm not gonna lie when I say that her best friend is SO much better in bed. Literally. I don't regret anything.

Almost positive I saw a girl who became a famous singer and actress get gangbanged in an apartment parking lot late on a Saturday night 16 years ago. Will not name her but her initials are JS and she is also known recently for dating a pro football QB. I heard some noise that night in my parking lot and looked and saw a group of teens-4 girls and 7 boys-drinking and doing beer bong. After awhile one of the girls started feeling out this hot blond with big tits. She said she"s fucking wasted and urged the guys to feel her out too. after they started groping her the same girl said somebody put a cock in her mouth. They put a little pillow on the ground and made the girl get on her knees. 3 of the guys took their cocks out and stood around her and 1 of the other girls grabbed the back of the blond"s head andwas pushing her head up and down on one of the guys cock. A girl said suck it Jess suck it. After about 10 minutes of giving the guys head the agressive girl-who was a cute girl with short black hair-said I wanna see her get fucked. they stood her up the this guy bent her over and started fucking her. A few minutes later another guy put his cock in her mouth while the other guy continued to fuck her. This lasted for over 40 minutes and 5 of the 7 guys had their cock in her at some point and the girls were squeezing her tits.I was so turned on seeing young girls groping and cheering for another girl to get fucked. I was just hoping nobody would see what was going on and stop it or call the cops. Within 3 or 4 minutes all the guys came, unfortunately I was too far away to see the cum on her face and tits. When they got her dressed the aggressive girl said "She's so wasted she won't even remember." Well about 8 years later I was working with a guy and he said he went to the school that the famous girl went to. He said the guys would peek in the gym to watch her tits bounce around when she was in gym class.Then he said he heard that 4 or 5 guys gangbanged her in a parking lot when she was a sophomore. That's when I put it together that it was her I saw getting it that night 16 years ago Over the years I witnessed dozens of people having sex in cars or just out in the open in my parking lot which lead me to finally buy a video camera and film some of them. Just wish I would of had a camera when the soon to be famous girl was getting gangbanged, I would be rich.