I was 18 and had just graduated high school. My older sister had just come back home for the summer after her first year of college. I'd gotten in the habit of looking at porn, talking to girls online, and masturbating most nights of the week before bed. The family computer was right outside my bedroom but our parent's bedroom was downstairs so rarely had to worry about them finding me once they went to bed.
I wasn't used to my sister being there yet so late one night I went out in a tshirt and boxers and went through my routine with my cock pulled out while scrolling through images. All of a sudden my sister asks "Whatcha doin?" In my surprised state I couldn't decide what to do first: close out of the porn (which I know she saw cuz she was only a few feet away) or put my dick away. We were a very conservative family so for her to see me in my boxers would have been embarrassing enough but for her to see my hard dick was unthinkable!
Suffice to say I didn't really do either action very well. I fumbled around while she stepped closer, finally clicked out of the porn I had open, and for some reason spun around in the office chair I was in before putting my dick away and stupidly said "Nothing!"
I was right on the edge of cumming as all this happened and as her eyes trailed down from my eyes to my dick I started splurting my cum. The first forceful shot went straight to the right side of my chin and hung from what little facial hair I could grow at the age of 18 while the rest mostly just covered my hand.
My dad had uncovered the evidence of me looking at porn a few years earlier before I knew how to erase my trail and had grounded me from the computer for a long time so the only thing I could think to say was "Please don't tell dad."
It felt like 10 minutes went by. I don't know how she kept such a close to normal expression on her face through all of this but after a minute and without looking away from my cum covered cock and hand she said "OK but you'll owe me."
She turned and walked away and I went to clean up, shaken to my core. I later thought she meant "owing her" would mean normal sibling blackmail stuff...dishes, trash, clean up after the dog...but the next night while I was still embarrassed to even be around her she knocked on my door and said "I want you to do it again"
I tried to act dumb to avoid an embarrassing topic but she made sure I knew exactly what she wanted and said "I want you to sit in that chair and jack off while I watch but I want you completely naked this time...or I'll tell dad"
This was not normal for her at all, being aggressive, sexual, and demaning. I was honestly a little shocked, scared, and even turned on even though I knew this was wrong. But I quickly reasoned at least the release will feel good, the consequences from my dad will be unenjoyable. So we rolled the office chair into her room, I got naked, sat down and jacked off while she watched.
We did this a few more times. Another few times she was in my room as I returned from the shower and just had me drop my towel and jack off. She never exposed herself to me or touched me although I certainly started fantisizing about that.
Then she went off to college and so did I and the next summer it was like nothing ever happened.
All 100% true.

the funny thing about motherless and other anon chan porn img boards is that we're a bunch of weird, fucked up, semi-bigoted and intelligent people--most of whom participate in society in a pretty wide range of functions, including doctors, teachers, lawyers, police officers, former military, to name a few--and here we are all talking about some seriously taboo shit that's so totally strange that people would never have talked about it before the internet without getting like, burned at a stake. it's amazing to me that organizations like naambla even existed before the internet, although i guess with how overtly political sex became in the 1970s, it makes sense.

foucauldian analysis theorizes again and again that all of our relations enforce a patriarchal sexual order that enslaves all of us to a societal panopticon, the watchful entity that keeps you from running red lights when you're at an empty intersection in the dead of night, or from trying to steal even when you could get away with it--and that this matrix of power manipulates the energy of our sexuality towards its own goals.

it's important to understand that foucault isn't proposing a conspiracy, but rather a natural progression of cooperative and conglomerated interests geared, on one end, towards finding out what satisfies us, and on the other end, to use that information to encourage participation in the construction of a society with an overarching goal: in early western civilization's case, which is now the case all over the world, that goal is production, a blind word that on its flip side means profit. whether this is good or bad is besides the point. the concept of profit, like pretty much every concept that comprises the grand concept of human existence, can be used for good or evil purposes.

the point of talking about this matrix of power over our sexuality is that it distorts our sexuality: sex, at its psychological bottom line, is meant to be an exercise in power--thus "the chase," S&M, the "stud," etc--but offset power balances in early and influential relationships also trigger psychological attachments to certain types of power play--take, for instance, the classic serial killer archetype, who often comes from an abusive family or home situation (ie. dahmer and his father, gacey and his father, fish and an orphanage).

so here we are, obviously all fucked up with our strange fetishes that we can't talk about--yet anonymity provides us with the ability to communicate and acknowledge a connection in the formations that have been molded in our psychosexual landcapes. i think what we do here, sharing our stupid stories and talking about who we'd like to take, is a small but important step towards destabilizing a system that feeds on our secret desires and fears.

its the first moment in history (by moment i mean in terms of all history, so like this decade) that we can be so open in our deepest, sickest thoughts-- and i think having such an outlet affects how we act towards other people in real life, too. i know it does for me, i just feel more open about sex and stuff. at least with people i'm close to, anyway.

i think this is all tied in with violence on television and in video games as well--something inside of us wants to see destruction and its not only healthy to express it, its possibly important, because it borders on truths that people aren't conscious enough to have realized yet. underground rock and rap music have been influencing people towards honesty with raw or "shocking" emotions for decades now, and some could argue that the whole history of good art is just a progression of shocks to our consciousness. these ideas and subcultures have undoubtedly influenced the mainstream--but in terms of exploring the reality of our basest instincts, people need to be talking about violent sexuality. it's key to realizing the relationship between power and sexuality that has enslaved men and women to a system of their own creation for centuries.

wow who read all of that? LOL thanks for sticking through it.

So I have a girlfriend. we've been dating about a year. well she recently admitted to me that her and her step brother have been caught fucking 2 times by family members.
I've watched incest porn before a lot in fact. But the fact that she told me that kinda grosses me out. am I a hypocrite since I've watched the porn? she says it's in the past but I feel given the chance alone she might do it again. because she didn't seem bothered by it when she was admitting it.

I have never written one of these before, but I must confess that after spending some time here and reading particularly how so many guys of all ages want to fuck their daughters and sisters (step, -in-law, or 'legit'), I wonder if that applies in my family.

I have four sisters and two brothers. My dad has two brothers, and my mom has one. I wonder if any of the guys in my family think about fucking any of us girls. It's really weird...I've NEVER thought about incest applying to me or us, but it gets me kind of wet now that I do.

Thinking about family get togethers and wondering if I missed or misinterpreted my uncles lusting after their sister (/-in-law) or their nieces...thinking about my brothers jerking off to fantasies of fucking any of their sisters...wondering if my dad struggles with being turned on by his daughters...

Now I'm even wondering if my sisters have ever thought about experimenting with each other...or even me. I honestly never had incest fantasies (I originally came here for the stickam videos - guy and girl - and to explore dog porn), but I think now you pervs may be responsible for me getting wet at the dinner table every night! lol :-P

I finally am getting rid of my boring GF... pic is not of her, but my ideal type/look (she obviously runs and is tan)
I want someone to tell. Can anyone relate?
(RANT FOLLOWS) a big part of it is the photos and porn I look at on this website and others. I'm into lots of various stuff. Tons of hot girls that take self pics, late teens is my fav, so I got really used to the sluttiness. I'm mid 20's and lost virginity at 17

cliffs:

-She's age 23
-dated 9 months
-smashed after first week
-she sucks my dink, but only had 1 BF before me and didn't fuk till 22 years old (no experience)
-cute nerdy type girl, never had many friends, kinda awkward, 5'2 @ 120-125 (a tiny bit of fat, not skinny, not overweight) I prefer skinny tall bishes, like 5'9 @ 120
-refuses to work out/run but her GF finally talked her into getting a gym membership, like last week.
-doesn't tan

-has a hairy bush (doesnt shave, or trim really)

-doesn't wear thongs or g-strings after I show her many pics and videos of girls in thongs, trying to hint, and i'd say thongs turn me on. she wears regular panties, sometimes cheekies, which are meh. She finds thongs uncomfortable.

-has 1 pair of "heels", they're actually those beginner type ones that are made of cork (forget the name). Most chicks have many pairs of real high heels.

-calls her mom twice a day, texts every hour at least, cuddles with mom (they both just graduated and mom moved back home, though), sometimes texting every 5 minutes to mom. Was desperate for me to meet her mom and step dad after just 2-3 weeks. I should've peaced out.

-I once asked if i'm her daddy, she said "ya" and never said the word again (her real dad left her as a baby) i've had many girls tell me "i want you daddy" or "cum in me daddy", and that shit turns me on a lot.

-I asked her to send me pics a few months ago, after showing her a couple on my phone (panty pics and such) that others have sent me, of course she got jealous. She still wouldn't send me any.

-Last night on Skype she was showing me her website thing... afterward I get bored and show my abs/chest and she's like "mmmm" and I tell her to show me her tits, she refuses. She says to come over and she will. I say "well I want a tease" and she is like "uhh"

-I end call and text "u suck", but i've always let her know I view her as a fuck buddy/friend, she always refers to me as her BF.

I feel bad, but she's just very asexual compared to all of these hot sluts I see around campus and on the internet, even tumblr's with jb's.
I guess the primary issue has been: I want a hot slutty gf (who might flirt or suck another dudes cock), and that I love to show off to my friends and family. Not some reserved girl who doesn't know how to be sexy (running, thongs, slutty clothes, etc)