Having a sexual relationship with family members can
get started in just about any variety of situations,
some because one or more member has the definite hots
for the other, and some because of circumstances that
arise almost out of nowhere. Mine arose simply because
of my sister, and what she did with her birthday
present.

Darla got a small, hand-held video camera for her
birthday. It was pretty neat, and she went around
videotaping everyone in the house. I didn't know that
she had videotaped herself, too, and what she was doing
while she taped herself.

"Come on, Gary, let me show you my tape," she said.

"I've seen your tapes all day," I said. Mom and Dad had
gone to bed, and it was late, and I was tired. It was
past midnight.

"No, you haven't seen this one. I guarantee, you'll
like it."

I followed her to her room, where she hooked up the
small camera to her TV set.

The tape began in her room, with her just standing
there smiling. She sat next to me on her bed, and then
she nudged me. "Here's the good part,Gary."

She was laying on the bed, her legs spread, her fingers
moving up and down her pussy lips. I could feel my cock
suddenly grow, and I knew that my face was getting red.
The room suddenly felt stuffy.

She writhed around on the bed, rubbing her pussy,
lifting her skirt higher andhigher. Then, the tape
showed a close-up of her red, swollen pussy lips. Her
fingers moved to her cunt, and she pulled her lips
apart, rubbing her clitoris.

"Do you like that, Gary?"

I didn't know what to say. "Yeah," I said. My voice was
choked.

I squirmed, trying to adjust my hard-on in my pants. I
had never imagined that my sister looked so good. I
mean I knew that she had a nice body and all, but to
see it on display like this was giving me all sorts of
ideas.

She reached over and put her hand in my lap. Pressing
downward, and looked at me. She pulled my hand from my
side and put it on her knee, then pushed it up higher.
I could feel her smooth thighs and the warmth of her
crotch as she pressed my hand up under her bath robe
against her pubic bush.

I gently moved my finger against her pussy, feeling the
downy hairs beneath my fingers. At the same time, she
was rubbing the outline of my hard cock through my
pants. I felt her fingers on my zipper.

"Take off your clothes, Gary," she murmured. "I want to
take some more videos."

I knew that what I was doing was probably wrong, but I
had no choice, my hormones were raging at this point so
I stood and took off my shirt. She reached up and
unsnapped my pants, pulling them down to the floor. I
stepped out of them as my hard throbbing cock jutted
out over the band of my briefs.

My sister gasped audibly. "Damn, Gary,
you've got a big one!"

She reached up and grabbed my cock and pulled me toward
her.

She held it in her hand, examining it closely. With her
other hand, she tugged at the band of my briefs, and
pulled them down. As the elastic band passed over my
hard cock and set it free, it popped back up in the
air, reaching all the way up and slapping me in the
belly below my navel.

She stood and pulled off her robe. She wasn't wearing a
bra. Her tits bounced provocatively as she sat again
and pulled my cock to her face.

I watched with fascination as my sexy sister put her
lips around the shaft of cock. She ran her lips up the
length of it all the way to the head. Her tongue darted
out, flicking out and swiping across the purple head of
my rigid dick.

She then slowly moved her mouth down again, licking my
cock all the way to the base of it, holding my balls in
her hand. She pulled my heavy balls to her mouth and
licked, then sucked one of my swollen orbs into her
mouth. I couldn't believe that she was doing this, it
was like a dream.

I pulled away from her. "Lay on the bed," I said.

She lay back and spread her legs. "Please, Gary, fuck
me," she whispered. I didn't need to be asked twice. I
climbed on top of my sister, sucking on her erect
nipples as I positioned my cock against her hot, wet
pussy. I felt her reach down and guide my cock, wiping
the head of it against her juicy pussy.

I pressed gently, pushing my cock inside her a little
and she moaned. I thrustall the way into her, feeling
the warm, moist tightness of her cunt. I could feel my
balls pressing against her ass and she moaned again. I
began to thrust in and out of her with a rhythm she
seemed to like.

She tightened her legs around my ass, as her legs began
to tremble and shake. She moaned, and I could feel
spasms in her body as she pressed against me. Then she
came, just as I felt my balls tighten. I shot my cum
deep inside her, filling her hot box with my own
sticky, hot juices. I couldn't have held back if I'd
wanted to. It was like she was sucking it out of me.

After a few minutes, I pulled out of her and lay beside
her on the bed, dragging my cock across her legs,
leaving a sticky trail of cum and cunt juices.

"Why the hell did you tape yourself, anyway?" I asked.

"I wanted to see what it looked like."

"Looked pretty damn good to me," I said.

"I wanna see what you look like, jacking off, or
something."

It was that "something" that we taped.

When I was 11 i was always wantint and tryin to see the girls next door naked through thier bathroom window or bedroom window. One night I saw the bathroom light come on and snuck up next to the window to peek in. I saw the oldest sister that was 14 getting undressed and then a girl I know thats 13 came walking in and said something and reached out and felt the other girls naked tits then started getting naked too. I was hard as a brick seeing 2 naked girls muchless 2 naked girls feeling eachother up.
When they got done in the bath they walked out naked and went to her bedrom. I went to that window and was watching them. The girl that lived there left the room and the other girl laid down on the bed rubbing herself. I was really caught up watching her and all of a sudden someone grabbed me and threw me on the ground. it was the older girl and she was calling me a little pervert and telling me she was going to tell on me. I was so scared it didnt even occur to me that she couldnt tell because of what she was doing herself. She grabbed me by the arm yanked me into her house and into her room. The other girl was laughing saying so Mike is a window peeper. They sat on the bed and told me to get naked. I didnt want to be seen so I said no and they proceeded to grab me stripping me naked. They both looked at me all over and started feeling me up making comments about how much smaller mine was than her bf and that a hairless cock looked so much better. The 13 yr old said she had never seen a boy naked other than babies and she was checking it all out. I just laid there scared humiliated and embarassed. The older girl said they could do as they wanted to me and I was going to have to let them. She showed the younger girl about sucking me and then let her try it. Then I had to lick them. While I had seen naked girls even little ones I had never been naked in the same room with one. She told me to lick the 13 yr old and at the time I thought that just sounded gross. But when the older girl grabbed my cock and balls and was squeezing I quicly started lickin it and then she was telling me where to lick. I ended up licking both of them.
I did get to see them lick and kiss eachother too so it wasnt all bad.
She was catching me alone outside and would take me to the garage or someplace private and geting me naked and nessing around with me. One afternoon she took me into he garage got me naked then a boy her age I didnt know came out from behind some boxes and was naked too and I was introduced into sucking dicks and being fucked while she watched and laughed.

So what does one do when stereo typical terms do not match me? (no smart ass answers, it will just show you can not read nor take anything to heart from anyone who asks.. think about that please).

This pic makes me wish there was someone who truly wanted to be mine.
It makes my heart pound and crave many things.
I am not submissive and will not dominate.
I want who ever to talk and truly tell me things and I can tell them.
I would love for someone to want me to guide both of us but I want them to truly share in what we do.
I want them to have a real interest in finding new ideas with me and be open to all to learn about but we find what we want to share and how and what we do not want.
If someone in general has been watching us in what we look at for ideas and what drives our dreams AND what we do and how...., The words could only be the following in general to describe what they feel looking at it all...
Warm, Loving, Kind, Giving, Thoughtful, Fun, Hot, Kinky, Caring, Protective, Sweet, Funny, Real Love and so on.

Terms are used to place a box for someone to fit in...
A box can not define all I am and what I am not. That should be good :)

What I crave to give and someone to crave to give to me?

I like to take time and even edge for pleasure and NOT to use against someone.

slow 69 and for sure share in a kiss or swallow :)
Touch and play with each other to relax and bond.
Rub balls and any area to the point of pleasure and NOT harm or use in CBT or those ways.
Lightly pinch and rub nipples and breasts.
Lick,kiss and such nipples.
(can say same for cock or real clit and not what some call a dick).
Rub areas of body softly.
Edge each other.
Hug each other with nothing on and might just close eyes and just feel safe and loved.
Kiss and not just the lips :)
Both will at any time want to just give oral, lick and play with the others clit or cock and by default we want to do something for the other but can ask they watch and just enjoy too. Same for many things:)
Play in the bath or shower together.
Let me know they crave getting anal be cleaning their self well.

Let me know they crave we share anal be already being clean and wanting me to go to a nice place we make at home where they sexualy and with love and care touch, clean me out, play with ass, out side the anus and inside. If they want as they play, I want to play with theirs also :)
If they want they can rim me but I do not need that. If they do, I truly think of doing that also but so afraid and am not sure if I can.
Being so clean might mean we need time and play to cause our anus to make the mucus as we get turned on and want anal even more. This part if done right I like the feel and hope they would too:)
Before any anal, I truly would love any oral given and want to give it too:)
We talk about how we want to share anal. Do we want the other to slide in the others wet hole and just go till we cum then swap?, Give to the other for their pleasure then swap? Both edge how ever we want?
Want the other to ride at any speed or how ever hard but not more than the other likes.
Want the other to sit in our lap in them and they contract their anus and do what ever feels great to them even if it is to jerk to edge and enjoy the feeling over and over or jerk to near cum and then ride hands free to cum and then play to get hard and do again?
Ride dick till near cum and stop, then when they are ready ride some more and see how long that can go?

Every way one can think but both talking and together doing any of it all together any way it can be done.

I can not be called a sissy or alpha as I do not act or do as others show those terms to be.

I want toys to be included in ideas.

Size of the person is not what I need.. It is the want as I have to share pleasure and find ways to make that even better even with toys.

I can cum from my fingertips just penetrating over and over just in the lips (for lack of better terms) of my anus just as hard as when I use a toy over 6in around.

It is the persons need, want and craving for ME and to give me pleasure I want more than anything.
But I am the same so I must have someone like me who loves to give for the others pleasure but also wants to get pleasure being given just because they need,feel,crave,want,love to as I would.

Any race or gender that matches the respect and deep care for me that I have for them is fine with me. I am more open to beings and their hearts than the outside of their body.

As one small example..
If they are just 2in fully deep but foreplay makes me cum hands free when they give anal then I will crave them making me cum hands free first and want them balls deep and they cum from my anus being warm and tight around them as they do not pull back and slip out but as they work against my clamped tight anus they can push deep into and cum like crazy as I watch them :)

If they want to fill me up, then use a nice thick toy (I am not into long and pain so I never myself used a long toy.) that is 5 to over 6.5 inches around... I have used them and it has not made me where I can not choose to grip tight :)

If they want toys then great!
Nothing like each having a vibe near the P spot controlled by the other as we do 69 :)
I kind of like the idea :)

well...

One day I hope someone like me finds me :)
I wish in general the world had terms and places for many like me....
Not into hate or shame but shared love deeply with a true soul connection :)

My confession 
I once when through with a grinder meet up I was playing with my ass with my dildo and it was around like 2AM when I was doing this I decided to browse grinder not thinking I would find anyone on at the time but a guy with a pfp of his face texted me and asked if I wanted to meet up with him already really horny I say yes and tell him my address I asked him where we would do it and he sayed any where worked with him so I sayed could I suck you off in your car he sayed sure anyway now I am in the drive way and waiting a car passes by it was him he texted he passed me I get to his car he looked to be the guy in the pfp so I got in his car and we when to a discreet spot snd I proceeded to lean over to the driver seat and suck him off he told be as I am doing this if you don't swallow let me know so I can pull you out when I am close I sayed yeah I don't but after 5 minutes I told him I changed my mind and proceeded to deep through his cock and squeeze his balls 3 more minute pass and he pushes my head into his crotch and cums down my throat after that I caught a little but and had saliva and a little cum drool into my facial hair he says oh shit sorry and looks for something for me to wipe my face he finds a box of tissues and gives me one after i wipe my face he drops me off where we met and he start to drive off when I realize [forgot to mention I wear glasses and took them off and placed them on his dash board] I forgot my glasses and run for his car luckily I lived down a dead end road so he had to turn around seeing this I ran faster then I ever ran before and cought up with him and got to his driver side window i he was parked texting me that i left my glasses in his car I got his attention and he gave them to me I walked home and when to bed.

I live in a suburban neighborhood and was waiting for the bus at night when I noticed a girl in the bus stop across the street. Then I noticed it was a crossdresser. She looked skinny and had a shopping bag in her elbow. I walked towards her and we started chatting. She had a cheap blonde wigg, horrible mime-looking makeup, and was missing several teeth. She was using a jean skirt and long stockings, and even with all this I asked for her number and she gave it to me. I kissed her cheek and went back to waiting the bus. A few minutes after looking at her I felt my cock growing in my pants, I wanted to fuck her right there in the dark. I went to her again and asked for a handjob while we waited the bus. She told me she didn't know where to, and I suggested that any dark place near the railtracks was fine.
- Wait for me, I'll look for a place.- She said.
She went into one of the streets and faded while I waited and waited in what seemed like twenty minutes (but was obviously less). Right when I thought she wouldn't be back, I saw her coming quickly towards me. She told me that there was a vacant lot nearby, and suggested that we went that way.
Right at that moment I felt a little bit scared. I didn't know what she carried in her bag, and maybe she had called other people that could hurt or mug me. I was about to say no, but I don't know why I thought (FUCK IT) and we went there. We walked three blocks and entered the vacant lot that was really dirty and somewhat far of the entry there was a little construction. I thought to myself (THIS IS IT, BAD IDEA BAD IDEA) and continued walking. We entered the minuscule building (it had no doors) And we started making out. She then looked at me oddly and reached for her bag.
- What are you looking for? - I asked.
She said nothing and reach at the bottom of the bag, pulling out a box of condoms. (THANK GOD, i thought) We kept rubbing against each other and then she started jacking me off. Then she went to her knees and sucked my cock, deepthroating my seven inches. I asked for her ass, but she wouldn't let me. she started sucking my balls, and then she asked to lick my ass. I said yes, even if I wasn't just bathed. I asked to fuck her ass again, and she asked to fuck mine. I thought to myself (FUCK IT) and said to her: FUCK IT. She started fucking my tight asshole with a small but energetic dick, and really soon I turned around, and went all the way up her ass. I fucked her hard until she couldn't take my cock anymore, and started sucking my dick again. I could have kept without cumming but I knew that the bus was coming and that her ass wasn't available anymore, so i came in the condom while she sucked the tip of my dick and jacked me off. We exchanged a few words, I kissed her in the mouth, and went to the bus stop while she went the other way. Half a cigarette afterwards, the bus that my friends were in came and I went to a party, while chatting nonsense with my female friend and two aquaintances of her, taking this story to my grave.