What’s my issue?

im attracted to dick and cum. Older bear type body. That’s it. Would/could never kiss or cuddle or have any type of relationship with another man. 

im married with little ones. My wife is attractive. Sex life is pretty good. I get laid as often as I give her a leg rub. Blowjobs a few times a month and she swallows every time. 

I’ve had a couple random hook ups with guys years ago. Maybe 7 total. I sucked their dick. 2 of them were able to cum. One of them licked my ass which was pretty good feeling. 

I have a fucking machine with a slew of dildos. Once in awhile I have the opportunity to use it. I get some blow and just take a pounding for hours. I’ll even record it and jerk off to it later. 

I yearn to get topped by an older bear type. I fantasize about worshipping his cock and just milking precum. Then I want to be bent over and fucked hard. Belly to butt. Minimal talking. Then I’d love to end it by feeling his coc inside my mouth pumping cum all over my tongue. 

anyway I just felt like getting that off my chest. Someday. 

anyone else like me? How did you satiate that desire? 

tha ks. 

I am in a Target browsing through the dvd selection. There is a couple that keeps walking by me. About 5 or 6 times now. I can tell they are saying something about me, I just dont know what. All of a sudden the woman who looks about 35 came up behind me and whispered in my ear. She said "you are fucking hot, i want to watch you suck my husbands cock while i masturbate. Meet us in the red pick up truck in front of the garden section." Then she licked my ear. I looked over to watch her leave and she had this little skirt on that looked so sexy. So I stood there and pondered what to do for a minute. I was like why not.

I walked out to the truck. The windows were tinted black. I knocked on the passenger door. Then opened it up. He was in the drivers seat, stroking a big hard cock. She was in the back seat. I hopped in the truck and closed the door. He started the truck and drove around to the side so no one could bother us. He had her skirt hiked up with no panties on. She had a perfectly shaved crotch that i had plain view on. He pulled his pants down and took them off exposing an 8" hard cock. He said "get to sucking" I leaned over and grabbed his cock and stroked it for a min. Then i placed my mouth on the tip and started taking it in inch by inch up and down. I can see her out of the corner of my eye with a dildo fucking herself. That made me more horny.

he stared fucking my mouth making me take it deeper and deeper. She said "hold on a minute" i took my mouth off his cock and looked back toward her. She took the dildo out of your cunt and put in in my mouth and told me to "clean it off". I did what i was told and licked all the juices off. She then said that she wanted to hear and see him cum. So i placed my mouth back on his cock. He fucked my throat harder and harder. He placed his hand on the back of my head and pushed his cock as far as it could go and held it there. All of a sudden his cock erupted down my throat shooting thick globs of cum right down my throat forcing me to swallow every bit of it. I licked his cock clean. He wrote down his email address and gave it to me. He said next time I want to fuck your sweet ass while you are licking her pussy. I said no problem. I got out of the truck and they took off.

every time me and my gf get high she can't wait to take me to bed and fuck me in the ass our dildos. I wasnt into it at first but after she stretched my ass for the first time I can't help but just want my ass filled with the biggest thing I can find When were high. Sometimes she brings the dildos into the shower while I'm in there and makes me fuck myself while she watches. Once she's ready to be fucked she gets her biggest dildo and stretches me till its the full 11 inches deep then makes me fuck her with it buried in my hole, I love Feeling it so deep in me, I tell her I wish it was a real cock and it would blow a huge load deep in m. one day I want to get hi and find a guy to fuck me and blow in my ass, since she started this I have also been fantasising about sucking a nice big cock and swallowing all his cum as he explodes in my mouth and all over my face. Does anyone else do this when on meth?

My confession I'm married and I've always wanted to suck a dick. I don't know why I just see how girls enjoy it and I want to try it, I've played with my wife's dildos and I've loved it but I want the real thing I want to taste the cum in my mouth I've swallowed my own and it's good I live in Phoenix and I'm down to try it while she's at work someone just comes in and pulls there pants down and lets me suck them dry. I have fantasized about some of my friends just chilling and all of the sudden I unzip there pants and I put it in my mouth.
Post some of your pics so I can jack off to them or hit me up so when can try it

Any other married guys like me?

love women. Could never even think of being in a relationship with a man or even kissing/hugging/touching one in a romantic way. 

however

sometimes I have the desire to suck dick or get fucked. 

I know it’s purely being a sexual deviant. I love sexual pleasure. I want to suck dick or get fucked just to please myself. Just to make getting off more interesting/fun. 

I fuck my wife almost every other day.. She’s pleases me like a porn star. She’ll suck my dick for a long time and swallow my cum. She lets me fuck her mouth and slap my dick on her tongue and stuff like that. I have no complaints. 

but still the desire for cock and cum is there. 

I’ve sucked a couple dicks in the past through c list and Grindr. For the most part it was enjoyable. I fuck my ass with a dildo when I get some alone time and it’s also very enjoyable. 

any other guys like me? 

I guess the reason I’m asking is because I just want to know I’m not the only one. Just for shits n giggles it would be nice to know. Thanks for reading. 

So I started embracing my bi fantasies about three months ago, watching a ton of gay and trans porn. I'm a little shy, so I had not sought out being with a guy or trans. However, I have had a really filthy fantasy of going to one of our local porn stores and having some fun in the video booths and theater. I was hesitant until recently, when a conversation I had with another bi guy got me so horny I said "Fuck it, let's do this." Last night, I got up my nerve, slid on some a little too tight pants with no underwear and went to my local joint.

I've been in before just to jerk off to movies, but I was here for a different reason this times. I went to the desk and got about $20 in tokens and proceeded to the back where the booths are located. These are decent size booths that have holes big enough to allow comfortable access to cock and balls, as well as ass. Several guys were hanging around outside the booths, and other booths were occupied. None of the guys were what I would call very attractive, but that was fine because I'm not either. I made eye contact with several, then went into a booth, popped in my money, and immediately got naked. I felt so dirty and elated, just couldn't wait for the action to start.

It didn't take long. A stubby, fat cock appeared in the hole, nice big balls. I touched it, loving the feel in my hand. The guy stuck his hand in and fondled me as well. He whispered for me to turn around, and then he groped my ass, sliding a finger into my crack. It was fucking amazing for a guy who had only used a small dildo back there before. The desire to suck him overcame me. I dropped to my knees and started licking his cock and balls before taking his whole cock in my mouth. I was in heaven. I sucked him hard, slobbering all over his dick. I must have sucked his cock for 5 minutes, enjoying the feeling in my mouth. Then he whispered he was cumming. I kept licking and waited for the shot. When it came, it surprised me at how hard in hit my throat, and I nearly gagged. But I chugged a nice load. I have tasted my own cum, so I was prepared for the saltiness, and it was SO FUCKING GOOD. He pulled out, then whispered if I wanted some. Never one to turn down a blowjob, I stuck my cock through the hole. He was all over it, sloppily licking my balls before throating my cock. His technique was damn good, his tongue wrapping around my dick. It was the best BJ I have ever had. I moaned and shot my load down his throat within a couple of minutes. He whispered thanks and was quickly out the door.

I didn''t have to wait long for more fun. I learned not to lock the booth door if you were interested in a more ... personal ... experience. Just as I was finished cumming in the strange mouth, I heard the door open behind me. I turned to see a guy who appeared to be in his mid 50s. He was rubbing his bulging pants, looking at my ass. I knew what he wanted, and I was ready. I pulled away from the hole and started rubbing his bulge. I turned my back to him in away I could still rub him but give him access to my fat ass. He groped the hell out of me, grabbing my cheeks and sticking a finger up my hole. I writhed with pleasure, then begged him to fuck me. He unzipped and dropped his pants to reveal what had to be at least a 7" cock. I smiled devilishly, then got on my knees in that filthy room. I have never felt more like a fucking slut. He got down behind me, no condom, and licked my asshole, spitting in it. He spit several times on his cock, then slid in my tight ass. A small amount of pain shortly turned to absolute euphoria. I WAS GETTING FUCKED! He was slow at first, then sped up. I could feel his balls smacking my cheeks as he buried himself all the way in my man pussy. I groaned as softly as possible, loving every inch of his dick. He seemed to pound me for hours, though it was probably only about 10 minutes. I heard his breathing get faster, and I knew I was about to be bred. He got to the breaking point, stopped stroking, and with an audible "Oh fuck baby" he blew a huge load up my no longer virgin asshole. It filled my bowels, all warm and sticky. I was on cloud 9, so euphoric. He stayed in me until he got limp, then he pulled out and wiped the remaining cum on his cock on my ass cheeks. I immediately wiped this up with my hand and licked it all off, loving his jizz. He whispered thanks baby and told me how good a fuck I was, then left. I stayed in that position for a few seconds, loving how slutty I felt and reflecting how in the space of 15 minutes I had given my first blowjob, received my first from a guy, and gotten fucked for the first time. I felt filthy and happy..

The story is getting long, so to keep it short, I actually got fucked one more time that evening, taking a short cock from a fat guy. It wasn't quite as good as it was a little shorter than the first guy, but it still felt good, and he shot an even bigger load. This time, as it leaked out my ass, he fed some of it to me. Yum. I also got to give three more BJs and swallowed one small load and two large ones that nearly choked me. So my tally for the night: four loads of cum in my stomach plus the remnants of two more; two cocks in my ass that left two fucking huge loads; one very happy fucking slut.

I'm not done with this place. I'm going back this weekend. I think I may have also worked up the nerve to meet guys one on one. I'm looking into Grindr and other apps/sites that offer hookups. I just want to be as filthy and slutty as possible.

Confession.... Continued......

I dropped my towel exposing my still moist body to my lover. His body was stretched out across the bed waiting, his cock rock hard and already dripping with precum. He motions me forward. "Not yet." I shake my finger at him I grab the computer and start it up poking my ass up in the air. I hear him sigh and I look over to his face as the scene on the screen lets out a soft moan grabbing his attention. "Whats this?" I let out a soft giggle and wiggle my ass, which is greeted with a firm smack. I start watching as the scene unfolds a wonderful pussy is pounded harder and harder. I get wet watching, thinking of how my pussy is going to be pounded soon. I feel his hand on my ass warn and eager. He slowly presses further towards my moist mound. His fingers find my aching clit and he gives it a little pinch. I let out a soft moan. He continues to rub slowly adding the addition of a finger in my pussy and eventually one in my ass. At this point my mind is far from the porn that is still playing on the screen. I bury my face in the pillow I am laying on and let out moans of pleasure as I come to a climax. My body is vibrating with pleasure and before I realize what is happening his face is at my pussy. He grabs my legs and pushes me to my knees, and quickly laps up my juices. He lets out a smooth moan,"God your wet." Little does he know what I have in store for him. He rolls on his back and I sit down on his face. I rock back and forth using his tongue for my own pleasure until I again cum my body shakes with pure bliss. I flip over on my back and tell him to get up here. I arrange his hips over my face and take all of him in my mouth and smile inside as he lets out a cry of bliss. He takes the double ended dildo and rubs it slowly over my clit, I return the pleasure to him circling my tongue around his head letting my warm breath come in waves over him. He rams the dildo in my waiting pussy shocking me in the best way. Again and again he enters my wanting pussy. I am so wet at this point my essence is dripping on to the bed. I grab his balls firmly in my hand. His tongue flicks quickly against my clit. I grab his hips and pull him into my throat deeper, taking him all in. Together we let out moans of pleasure as he fills my mouth with his hot cum, I swallow it all and lick his dick clean. He rams both ends of the dildo in my pussy stretching to my max I scream out. I cum, my body convulsing slightly with euphoria. He pulled out the dildo, it flicks my cum on his face he licks the dildo clean. He kisses me, I grab his face an lick my cum off him. We lay next to each other and drift off to sleep.

(I didn't plan on falling asleep but alas it happens, and since this is all true I wont fib)

Did you ever have a role model in life, someone you look up to, and who makes you jealous?

I did.

In hs, I had this friend, popular blonde, very beautiful, and she was my best friend, and still is, to this day, but she is not the one - her older sister. Also a blonde, very beautiful, but since she is two years older than us, I always wanted to be like her, to attract men she does, to dress the way she does, act and conduct myself, like she does.

I wanted to be her.

By all objective standards, I do look good, some would argue very good, but I always felt that I came too short, comparing to her.

All this, pretty much ruined my sex life. My bfs were all, not good enough, since I couldn't imagine that she would be with them. Later on in life, all this is responsible for thousands of dollars, I left to my therapist, trying to get rid of this infatuation with her.

First stupid thing I did, was to have sex with her college bf. We had sex in his car. She somehow found out about his affair, and dumped him. I was 100% sure she knew it was me, but no, he actually had no idea that we were friends.

While we did it, I felt like her, and it gave me the best orgasm in my life.

After that, since, you figured out by now that we stayed close after hs and college (I was a maid of honor on her sister's wedding), she started dating this big guy, and it looked pretty serious. But men will be men, and after just a few signs I threw his way, he made his advance. We had sex for over a year. That was a great time, and the sex was amazing, once again. We did everything, anal, dress up, role play, everything. But, the catch was, that after a year or so, he told me he wants to leave her, for me.

That was the best feeling in the world, but... I panicked, and just cut any ties with him. Once again, I thought she will find out. No, he just left her, without any explanation.

That is the point in which I started therapy, and after some while, managed to distance myself from all that craziness. In the mean time, she met a man she later married.

I evaded her, and everything around her, until their wedding day. He was dreamy - tall, handsome, successful.

That day, I hooked up with the best man, just because he was his best friend, and it turned into a relationship.

For seven years, I was with this man, and I was thinking of another. That sent me into a spiral of sexual deviance (I am here, am I), and fantasy. Since he was his best friend, and I was a good friend of hers, we started spending lots of time together. I didn't wanna do anything, not even try - special thanks to my therapist - but it was just pouring out of me. We would go to vacations together, and I would, for instance ,sunbathe topless, in front of them, even though I never did that before. I would wait for the right moment, to ask him, when we were left alone, to rub in some sunscreen on me. Besides vacation, I would do similar stuff, just to point his attention towards me. He didn't even look at me, I was totally uninteresting to him.

After our evenings together, we would go home and have the greatest sex ever, all because I was thinking of him, while being with my bf. After a while, I even introduced a dildo in our sex, I was riding it, while sucking him off, or sucking it, while my bf fucked me, imagining that he was with us.

Somewhere along the way, in therapy, we realized that I have shifted my obsession from her, to him, fully. I started detesting her, hating her, with all the bad things going through my mind.

Then, one evening, he told all of us that he has some problems at work, and that he can't find a trustworthy assistant. Without thinking, I offered myself. Everyone loved the idea - who can he trust, if not one of his wife's closest friends.

Maybe a month after I started working for him, I dumped my bf. It was just me and him, all day long, my time is coming.

Only it didn't. I did all I could, wearing a short skirt, showing a glimpse of garters, only to be warned that I must dress more formally. Same happened with wearing no bra on a white shirt - not professional. I gave my best, but he just wasn't interested.

This went on for years, and years, and my sex life was non existent, residing on the web of fantasies, I was living off.

I met a man, from a nearby town, with whom I started having casual sex, and, I ended up pregnant. I found out early, two weeks in. Told him, and he asked me to move in with him, asking me to marry him. I said yes, without thinking, but after further insight by my therapist, we all agreed, it was the only way for me to heal, and that that would be possible only if I go as far as possible, and cut all of them out of my life.

I have announced the news to them, gave in my two weeks notice, and they were both happy for me. She asked me to promise that we won't become strangers, and that we will visit each other.

The last day in the office, he stayed late, so did I. When I entered his office, he was surprised that I haven't left sooner, and I said something like "not without saying goodbye".

He stood up to hug me, and I kissed him. He backed off, surprised, but when I tried it again, he did the same.

Couldn't beleive it! After all the bending over, teasing, unbuttoned shirts, he didn't even get it. I grabbed his crotch, and he was hard as hell, so I just got on my knees, and started unbuttoning him. I didn't plan on kissing him, it just happened, but this, in my crazy logic, I wanted to leave him no choice, because, what man would refuse that from a beautiful woman.

He was holding one of my hands, but I put his cock in my mouth. He said something like, "no, please", but then I started thrusting hard, swallowing it all. At that point he gave in, and enjoyed.

I was so wet, I thought I would leave a puddle on the floor. It was surreal. When he came in my mouth, I swear to God, I came, handsfree, fully dressed.

He looked like he got tossed around by a hurricane.

"What a hell was this?"he finally asked.
"Nothing you should worry about, I am moving and getting married."

And that was the end of it. Two days later, we moved, and I never saw them again. It has been more than five years. She called me a couple of times, but I didn't answer, and after a while she got the message.

I have healed. This confession is kind of a burden dumping, since I can't tell this to anyone else, except my new therapist. I still have leftovers from that life, I visit this place, and there is a dildo in our bed room, but his face is not there any more.

I understand that this can be a bit overwhelming, but it is what it is. You can judge me, I get that, many poor choices are behind me, but are we even human, if we have none of those.

My confession 
I once when through with a grinder meet up I was playing with my ass with my dildo and it was around like 2AM when I was doing this I decided to browse grinder not thinking I would find anyone on at the time but a guy with a pfp of his face texted me and asked if I wanted to meet up with him already really horny I say yes and tell him my address I asked him where we would do it and he sayed any where worked with him so I sayed could I suck you off in your car he sayed sure anyway now I am in the drive way and waiting a car passes by it was him he texted he passed me I get to his car he looked to be the guy in the pfp so I got in his car and we when to a discreet spot snd I proceeded to lean over to the driver seat and suck him off he told be as I am doing this if you don't swallow let me know so I can pull you out when I am close I sayed yeah I don't but after 5 minutes I told him I changed my mind and proceeded to deep through his cock and squeeze his balls 3 more minute pass and he pushes my head into his crotch and cums down my throat after that I caught a little but and had saliva and a little cum drool into my facial hair he says oh shit sorry and looks for something for me to wipe my face he finds a box of tissues and gives me one after i wipe my face he drops me off where we met and he start to drive off when I realize [forgot to mention I wear glasses and took them off and placed them on his dash board] I forgot my glasses and run for his car luckily I lived down a dead end road so he had to turn around seeing this I ran faster then I ever ran before and cought up with him and got to his driver side window i he was parked texting me that i left my glasses in his car I got his attention and he gave them to me I walked home and when to bed.