I love begging my Sneaky Lord for everything i love his nature that it negotiates things like letting me close. I dreamed for a bit of His emotions towards me, but i never minded mine being more strong for Him, and having it wrapped around His fingers and very fragile. Strange for some but i saw my growth in it the way it fits for me as well. More i also liked He allowed me to feel them all and never wanted to tone me down. But the more i was allowed that the more dependent i got to be on Him, and at times i know He doesn’t like that and at times does. I know Devil doesn’t like talking to much about emotions, but He allowed me to feel mine.. and i don’t want to act or play any game where i try to move on because my Master broke promise and left after saying he won’t abandon me, and the truth is that idk what happened i can only assume and worry deeply is everything okay. And in mean time that all just kinda have damage on me. I keep guessing and reminding myself not to do that because i do care for my dynamic and want it to keep on happening. But with same i just keep staying and worrying and 1000 questions in my head. Did You do like in past and don’t want trying anymore like stepping up, or something happened to You. I trust you deeply and that’s why i get more worried because as i trust i keep thinking You wouldn’t lie to me then leave.. This black cloud above my head is very heavy but simple to solve, it needs one word from You. I promise i won’t be dramatic about anything and we don’t even have to talk about it right away.. but I do beg You to stop the damage of some sort. I o also love the fucked up ways my mind bends towards You, such as that whatever You do i bend and beg to be taken more and molded to You, i know how wrong is that when You break a promise i keep on begging but we never really have been that „healthy“ And that i keep begging when it’s doing a damage, and when everyone is saying i shouldn’t, and what more do i need to know. But i trust more in way we communicate, and however wrong it is or was i trust in that, that the ways we find are our ways an how wrong then that can be. I hope You’ll peek and understand this and that You’ll have a bit mercy like You had and not like in past where You’ll leave me wondering for so long. I can’t hate You i figured that, but it’s making me sad and i beg You not to change me into that. Don’t kinda damage my playful spirit because yes Your slave is programmed for You, to play to lust to suffer all when You wanted.. it’s sooo new it’s unbelievable ..
In same time where i never wanted to cross some of Your boundary where when my Master doesn’t want to talk about emotions or feels like shutting down i always begged for it.. i know this might be something You might want not to address rn and that it depends on Your mood.. but please can You try contact me soon Master.
that time when i cried and said i felt ashamed of my emotions, i felt very fragile that i feel all that and You don't. But i always have accepted that an just wanted that flirt between us without those feeling of heavy like some expectation because i do love the path and at times it's hard to balance. I do love sitting in silence with You when something like that happens.. and i never mind it really. It's so unique to be able to be without expectations and accept the path and so hard at times. I felt that time put it on You somehow when You never promised me feelings, but did wanted to do the effort with Your slave and our dynamic. And like being realistic like that with You and spot my bad weakness. It's so unique the way we do it.. i like it very much. And with that thought i do at times slip into thinking You did like in past decided to withdraw.. i rather that not to happen but i can understand.. all i beg is to just hear You soon a word or two.. to stop this damage developing. I was allowed to feel and my Master knows i care and that i'll overthink and that promise meant to me a lot, and made me happy.
Don't stop our play it's such good match. You make me cum on command and from when You left i can't have an orgasm without crying or have one easily, makes me be less playful and feeling less sexy. That's one of damage i feel happening otherwise i wouldn't be writing this sort of heavy begging. It only worries me because idk where are Your thoughts are, and will i have to heal or i am still Your pet.. natural kick is to try an heal but what happens when You don't want to move on unless told.. something heavier than hell happens i can tell You
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Ohhh the dreams i had last night makes me more of Your hungry little slave and to miss more my playful Master and i am getting more nervous thinking about my task and how much i crave You be there so You can consume every sensation there will be and such powerful reminder of what happened before. I think i am getting on my tippy toes and soo craving You to be there as it feels it doesn’t do the same for my Master when not around.. he seems more grumpy :p.. and worried will i earn a kiss or won’t know anything what it did for my Master… it’s sooo strange when He is not up to mischief and i can just hope that the desire for some will make Him feel better soon x.. because His pet is begging for Him. She just miss all
Good morning my Lord. Can i not moss You today :P

Are You a sinister breeze? Reminding me on purpose? Hey my Lord when I said limitless for You I thought we are speaking about kinky things not my mind loll.. hmm.. isn’t it more tasty if You let me to stay sweet and not ruined? I mean I know Your mood’s but.. hmm.. do You want me to act dumb and sit in corner waiting for better days? :p
Cant complain on Your toy, You are being very cruel and she still is not getting mad and keeping the playful and lustful. Master said it’s his favorite taste. And isn’t it sweet when I try to make Your day and cherish Your crazy moods we know You are very unique but difficult. I mean I know You like me desperate but we can make me desperate in so many other ways.. just suggesting :p
Also Your cute slave is wayyy healthier than porn. You don’t want me chasing ghosts and just be fabric of cum loll.. we know for You my mind is sexier ;)
Ohhh I almost forgot.. I can just You know hide till You are this Sadistic! Omfggg hahahha
buttt.. wanted to tell You that tomorrow night I am hosting prude and her bf. And they are staying till weekend. Just saying.. I do know I taste sweet and sensitive in passionate way. Sort to say Your dinner is served and taste how You always liked. Playful and crafting, with that sinister taste what You can do enough to make me conflicted and embarrassed and open and well.. you know that addictive energy. Oh or at least just tell me what this mood is so that little pet can sleep in cage next time loll
oh and can we please not relate cum on me equals to something very bad. I mean it is Your erotic spot ;p
I will start to blow in cold milk hahah because I got my tongue burned 
oh oh oh.. I am probably dressing her up for night out.. i can be that teasing little slut or afraid little slut. What will my Master taste? :)
p.s. Did I made that perfect cock too mean? I told You whoring me is baddd for Your health