when I was 14 my dad, had some renters that lived downstairs.. my dad worked long hours and was hardly around.. after a while I started to hang out with the renters as they would treat me like an adult.. they were in there late 30's and we would always talk about girls and sometimes watch porn.. It was cool.. one time on a sunday morning.. my dad was gone for the day on a business trip and it was football sunday.. My renter invited me down to his apartment for a day of porn, football and a couple suprises.. I was curious.. so I went down and he had the first suprise ready for me.. A joint.. I smoked weed for the first time and got real high.. then we sat down on his couch and he sat right next to me.. real close.. but because I was high it all felt good.. then he put on the porn, but this time it was differn't.. it was a couple dudes 69 sucking... I didn't want to seem uncool so I acted like nothing was wrong... next thing you know he was rubbing his dick and wispering things to me like.. "why don't you suck it.." and "don't worry no buddy will know but you and me".. he then took my hand and put it on his dick.. I started to rub it.. after about 5 minutes of this and watching the guys go at it.. I decided to step up and I reached down his sweatpants and grabbed a hold of his dick.. the guy seemed to like it, so I continued.. he grabbed my head and pushed me down onto the floor down between his legs and he slid his pants off.. now I was face to face with my first dick..his dick was weird.. It was long skinny and had a large forskin.. the guy made it easy by grabbing my hair and proceeding to fuck my face.. I had never felt anything like it in my life.. I liked it.. his skin would swoosh around in my mouth with my tounge while he pulled it in and out of my mouth.. after a couple minutes he decided that he was ready to finish.. and told me to open my mouth and swallow his load when he cam.. from the porn I new what he wanted.. I had no idea how bad it would taste.. when he shot the first load in my mouth I swallowed.. same with the second but the third made me gag and I got the rest on my face.. this is a true story and it continues from there..
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I don't know what to do. Basically, I'm in pervert's hell right now.
I supervise a group home for the developmentally disabled. We have a nice little group - a lot of fun. Mostly, they're middle aged to older. Yesterday, we got a respite in here who is barely mentally handicapped (you'd never know it without talking to her for a while), 22 years old, and just gorgeous - pretty smile, nice hair, nice eyes, slamming body (sort of skinny, but with firm looking, perky tits). I've been acting 100% professional of course (mostly), but the second that I saw her, I knew that I had to see her breasts.
Today, I had a hunch she was taking a shower, so I played dumb and walked into her room under the guise of having to tell her some mundane piece of information. She was indeed in the shower, and the door was open. I hovered there for a little while, and started to lean in to get a peak, when (son of a BITCH) a neighboring woman walked into the bathroom from another door. I had to step back, but I still HAD TO SEE the other girl naked! Somehow! So, I stepped outside, but got a view of the bathroom through the crack in the doorjam / hinges. I could only talk for so long with the door open before it looked suspicious, but I kept it there. The girl DID step out of the shower, and she was naked...but I didn't see it. The OTHER girl was in her way, just as she went for a towel, so all I got was a quick glimpse of her in the towel. Total fail.
This girl has flirtatious tendencies, so we were talking for a while. At one point, I thought that she might be flirting a little closely while she was telling me about her problems, and I told her, "It's okay, you can ask me anything. What's on your mind at this very moment?" I was hoping (but also terrified) that she would say something like, "I like you, and I want you to touch me." And...I would have done it. I've never done anything in my life to risk my career, my life, or endanger anyone. Never. But, at that moment, I thank my lucky stars that she didn't say that, because I would have (and still would, sadly) risked everything to fuck or just play around with this young girl (she looks a lot younger than 22, too). I fantasize in my mind that, as part of her disability, she has uncontrollable sexual desires (which is not uncommon with this population), exposes her self for no reason, or masterbates all the time (also very common). No such luck so far.
A couple of times, I swear, I was terrifyingly close to just cupping my hand on her breast, and imagine her just closing her eyes and whimpering for a second when I did that.
She's sleeping here overnight, and will be in all day tomorrow as well. Since she showers at night, I'm tempted to ask her to tell me when she showers because I have to check something with the water first (or something like that)...then, strategically hide my cell phone / camera somewhere in the bathroom (but where???). All I know is, I wish this girl never showed up at this house. I've been a perverted mess of a hard on since the second I met her, and it's really concerning me.
I did manage to do an extended elbow-tit earlier in the day. I forgot to mention that. I was talking to someone and she was next to me, and I moved my elbow in (and, yes, it was a firm tit). She didn't move either. I moved my arm very slightly so it would give just a little bit of a rubbing effect where her nipple definitely was, and she didn't move! I know she felt it! I was wondering if she was enjoying it since she didn't move at all.
I just know she's going to do something to bring me over the edge. I don't want to lose my job, and I'm afraid of doing something that will end my life as I know it. I have a promising career, working on an advanced degree, etc.
...but, what I would give for just a few moments of groping with her (with a postive response form her. No rape fantasies from this guy.
BTW - it gets worse. My boss lives next door, and her f#fteen year old daughter had a sleepover last night. They sleep literally a few inches on the other side of the wall from me! I couldn't stand the thought of those girls possibly getting naked some point. I imagined they were on a computer on one of those social cam-sites, and teasing / flashing the people that logged in (like a million videos that I'm sure we've all downloaded).
I need help, I think! God, I love girls that age. Once again, though, I don't act on it, but today was the first time I realized that I DO have limits, and I could cross them.
Maybe becoming a social worker in a middle school might be a bad idea for me (but that's where I'm headed). God help me!
In the summer of 2002, when i was 26 i met an 18yo girl in a local chatroom who called me to visit her. Back then digital cams were rare and she had no pics but I didn't care cause she assured me that she's not a fatso. I had nothing better to do, so i went there. She was real and everything. It's just that she was sick. She had this born condition of heart, that caused her to be pretty thin and physically weak. She made it clear, that she'll probably die within a year or two but may be a goner by tomorrow. She wasnt beatyful of course, being pretty skinni and she had absolutely no tits whatsoever but she was still very cute. We spent nice time, BBQing in her grandmothers farm nearby and in the night i uncherried her :P She was pretty eager fucker i might say! So she started visiting me cause I lived alone in my apartment and she could come whenever she wanted. We banged like rabbits for about a year. Then I went to another country for a while and lost contact with her. When I came back i tried to call her but got no answer. I was sure, she had died as she predicted and didn't even want to go to ask her parents. so i just let it go. 4 years later i was working as a clerk in a pathology center in our citys major hospital. We had all pathology services up to autopsies in our building. The workers usually smoked outside but i got along well with the so called basement people who prepared the corpses for autopsy and later sewed them together and gave them make-up and clothed them and so on. So i usually went smoke into basement when it was winter outside. Not only autopsy corpses came to us, but almost everybodu who died in our hospital. Lots were not autopsied because the cause of death was obvious - for example long and well-documented illnesses and stuff like that. They were just transported to basement to wait for their make-up. The autopsies took place exclusively in the mornings, so before noon all the basement guys were cutting up corpses on the ground floor and basement was empty. So I was smoking there all alone with fridges full of corpses and usually some fresh ones just brought in waiting to be auopsied or put to fridge. So this one day I was baffled. Because on one of the newcomers was - well, you already guessed it! The chick! Let's call her Tiina, because that was her name (yes, with double i's because its a common name in my country). So, obviously she hadn't died back then. I was everyhting from surprised to sad to angry because i would have wanted to bang her all those years.! Well, I went back upstairs. And after an hour when I went back to have a next regular smoke I did it one last time. Wasn't very comortable because rigor mortis had already sytarted to set in and she wasnt warm anymore. But because she was really light and quite short (maybe 155 cm), i managed to turn her and bend her legs so thay had my chance. It was pretty weird doing her with all those needles still in her veins and heart monitor stickers where she sould've had her tits. I didnt want the basment boy to see her cunt being full of cum, so afer finishing i wiped her clean deeply and set her back as she was. It was pretty weird i must say....