I have been married for almost 20 years, got into it very young, at 21, I have frequently visited this site for a long, long time, and this is my first confession.
I am desperate for attention, male attention, and sexual satisfaction, since I am not getting any of that for years. I still look good, but I feel like the most invisible woman in the world. I try to casually flirt with men around me, but they all think I am joking, since I am a "good woman, and a good wife", that is my image, but I just want someone to fuck me.
But that never happened, mostly because when occasion arises, I chicken out. Once it almost happened. I was at a work event, got pretty tipsy, and one of my colleagues, a married one, got a little handsy with me. Funny thing is, when I tried to flirt with him sober, he was one of those, who took it as a joke. I don't know, maybe he felt he can do something, because of one too many drinks I had.
I blew him, in the hotel toilet, and he came on my face.
Sad part is, even though I got no satisfaction from it, the memory of that encounter still fuels my sexual desire, when I am alone with myself.
I know this sound pathetic, but it is how it is.
